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what will it take for you?
by beachtowel, Jul 06, 2007 12:00AM
Hello old and new....
There is only really one thing different about addicts and that is when the light goes on in their head to stop, that they have had enough and they "truly want to stop"......
Nobody knows when this will happen for me it took 37 years....
There is a cliché "life is to short" and time you can never get back.....
I was a young teenager and got hooked on drugs big time.....when my light went on 37 years later I looked into the mirror and said where in the hell did the time go.....I no longer so a teenager but a grown man with a lot of gray hair.....
The difference is today I am clean and have been for over 19 months now and have got very involved in Recovery.......
Today at my homegroup N/A meeting a small group of us took our chairs and went outside to have our group....
A man a little older as myself sat next to me and he shared things about doing the right thing and honesty....He shared how bad he felt when he had to lie to his wife even when he knew that she knew it was a lie......
When our meeting was over and we cleaned up I was taking chairs back into the church I noticed a small baggie underneath where he was sitting which looked very much like crack....
another trustee and myself sat there for a few wondering when he would notice it was gone and try to sneak back for it.....we saw him drive by us on the road four times so we decided to stay and wait to see if he would pull in he never did.......I guess he was to ashamed to come back to retrieve his lost stash......
We took it into the church and flushed it down the toilet, it really is amazing he sounded so truthful and sincere but in reality he was still active in his addiction and he was using.....
Honesty is the key to recovery and to stop using is the key...
In this RX junkie generation and doctors are very guilty as well we as addicts feel to sleep we need Ambien, Ambien CR hell its legal, for depression more pills, for lack of energy more pills, more pills, more pills.......
This is how an addict thinks and until this cycle is broken you will use....and always have a great excuse, justifing why you need it......
Pain pills I scratched my knee, my back hurts, I twisted my ankle and Tylenol won't touch my pain I have to take oxycotin its the only meds that will take care of my pain.........
Recovery from addiction mean you stop using period.....and I hope all of you one day will realize that the only way to get your life back and get the control back is to stop using....
I wish this for all that are here and hope it happens while your still young so that one day you too don't look into a mirror and say where the hell did all the time go.............
There is only really one thing different about addicts and that is when the light goes on in their head to stop, that they have had enough and they "truly want to stop"......
Nobody knows when this will happen for me it took 37 years....
There is a cliché "life is to short" and time you can never get back.....
I was a young teenager and got hooked on drugs big time.....when my light went on 37 years later I looked into the mirror and said where in the hell did the time go.....I no longer so a teenager but a grown man with a lot of gray hair.....
The difference is today I am clean and have been for over 19 months now and have got very involved in Recovery.......
Today at my homegroup N/A meeting a small group of us took our chairs and went outside to have our group....
A man a little older as myself sat next to me and he shared things about doing the right thing and honesty....He shared how bad he felt when he had to lie to his wife even when he knew that she knew it was a lie......
When our meeting was over and we cleaned up I was taking chairs back into the church I noticed a small baggie underneath where he was sitting which looked very much like crack....
another trustee and myself sat there for a few wondering when he would notice it was gone and try to sneak back for it.....we saw him drive by us on the road four times so we decided to stay and wait to see if he would pull in he never did.......I guess he was to ashamed to come back to retrieve his lost stash......
We took it into the church and flushed it down the toilet, it really is amazing he sounded so truthful and sincere but in reality he was still active in his addiction and he was using.....
Honesty is the key to recovery and to stop using is the key...
In this RX junkie generation and doctors are very guilty as well we as addicts feel to sleep we need Ambien, Ambien CR hell its legal, for depression more pills, for lack of energy more pills, more pills, more pills.......
This is how an addict thinks and until this cycle is broken you will use....and always have a great excuse, justifing why you need it......
Pain pills I scratched my knee, my back hurts, I twisted my ankle and Tylenol won't touch my pain I have to take oxycotin its the only meds that will take care of my pain.........
Recovery from addiction mean you stop using period.....and I hope all of you one day will realize that the only way to get your life back and get the control back is to stop using....
I wish this for all that are here and hope it happens while your still young so that one day you too don't look into a mirror and say where the hell did all the time go.............
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For me it took losing a lot of relationships: with my daughter, my boyfriend, and my family.
My heart hurts for you after hearing that. Hang in there.
i see people posting here regularly who seem to have no desire to be well, only seeking imformation about how they can manage things, switch medication, substitute, pass drug tests etc.
or party with weed and booze and 'just quit the pills'
and other people who are 'not clean' posting answers (drug answers from drug users)
but there are a couple people here who 'get it'
congrats on your sobriety, and thanks for posting what i was thinking/feeling but couldnt type rationally.
too many people in the world being lost to pharmacuticals......and its getting worse.
i was lucky, i had 13 years in 12 step before i hurt my back and became addicted,
pain meds are a *****.
Kidding really... Great post.. I for one have made some much needed changes.. No more SSRI's No more benzo's, .. I have been sticking to supplements, melatonin..( I do have lunesta for emergencies only...) and I am hoping that with the new chiropractor and the added traction treatments my occasional need for muscle relaxants will no longer be needed.. my new xrays will be available Monday.. and I hope to schedule my MRI this month..
i remember once i was at an AA meeting, this was before my DOC changed to pills..Anyway there was an older lady sitting next to me and she was telling her story..It was just me and her on that side of the table..i could smell the alcohol on her , just reking , like i am sure people had smelled it on me many times..I remember leaving that meeting thinking why would you go to AA and had been drinking??? It really made me sad for her as well as me..She said she had been sober for 15 yrs??
Go figure...
R2R
to quit everything.
I fought that for many years.I quit smoking cigs. 8 years ago.Two years ago,
I quit drinking.Two months later, out of nowhere,I started smoking again after not having a cig for 6 years.When I started taking the hydro's 10 months ago,I started washing them down with beers.I am totally clean now except for the cigs. I know if I have a couple beers the pills will soon follow.I have a whole new plan now.Anything that alters my mind is not going in my body.
I am going to try again to quit the cigs next week.
Beach......do you think Methadone can help me with the cigs? J/Kidding
So far I am holding my own ...day three of my detox off vicodin es. I'm not feeling any better but I don't think I am feeling any worse either.