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I'm back from psych unit...so VERY sorry all
by Steve L, Jul 07, 2007 12:00AM
First, let me say that I'm primarily a psychiatric patient for 30 years and feel SO TERRIBLE about the unnacceptable post I left regarding suicide over a week ago. It was entirely innappropriate and I BEG your forgiveness. Please?
Anyways, I IMMEDIATELY called 911 and paramedics were here in 3 minutes...so don't know what response, if any, was left. I HAD TO STOP MYSELF!!! My wife told me the police were later over and took my gun and ammo away forever but I face no criminal charges THANK CHRIST.Hope I didn't rattle too much but fear I did. I guess I will never know now. Staff reinstated me on 6mg xanax per day and I restabilized out of psychosis in a day. Still on Geodon and Lithium. Am more medically dependent with good cause than actual "addict"..not that I'm not addicted. But I NEVER street buy or Dr shop. Never abuse so we are planning on switching me to hi dose klonopin for 10 weeks while I withdraw at 1mg per week,then 0.5mg per week, then 0.25mg for 2 weeks then stop. Yes I have a bunch of extra "bars" in case I flip out to take once a week or so as I believe will be the case for some time. That is 4 to 8 a month as opposed to 3-4 a day. An addiction yes, an improvement definately. We'll see how it goes. I'm scared poopless to be honest. Oh well, who isn't?
I will then withdraw from hi dose klonopin by 2mg every 2 weeks or so til down to 4mg and probably stay there for mental health reasons. No psychiatrist will deny me that medication regimen to keep me suicide and hospital free.
I don't know what the future holds but have ALOT of respect for each and every one of you and love you dearly. Hope and pray no one is angry with me. If you are, go ahead and vent. I won't be in nearly as much because I'm much more of a psych case than an addiction case...but will be facing PAWS starting Aug 1st. So OK...I made it and am clueless as to where I stand. Again, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!! Darn good to be alive.. Gods'Best, Steve
Anyways, I IMMEDIATELY called 911 and paramedics were here in 3 minutes...so don't know what response, if any, was left. I HAD TO STOP MYSELF!!! My wife told me the police were later over and took my gun and ammo away forever but I face no criminal charges THANK CHRIST.Hope I didn't rattle too much but fear I did. I guess I will never know now. Staff reinstated me on 6mg xanax per day and I restabilized out of psychosis in a day. Still on Geodon and Lithium. Am more medically dependent with good cause than actual "addict"..not that I'm not addicted. But I NEVER street buy or Dr shop. Never abuse so we are planning on switching me to hi dose klonopin for 10 weeks while I withdraw at 1mg per week,then 0.5mg per week, then 0.25mg for 2 weeks then stop. Yes I have a bunch of extra "bars" in case I flip out to take once a week or so as I believe will be the case for some time. That is 4 to 8 a month as opposed to 3-4 a day. An addiction yes, an improvement definately. We'll see how it goes. I'm scared poopless to be honest. Oh well, who isn't?
I will then withdraw from hi dose klonopin by 2mg every 2 weeks or so til down to 4mg and probably stay there for mental health reasons. No psychiatrist will deny me that medication regimen to keep me suicide and hospital free.
I don't know what the future holds but have ALOT of respect for each and every one of you and love you dearly. Hope and pray no one is angry with me. If you are, go ahead and vent. I won't be in nearly as much because I'm much more of a psych case than an addiction case...but will be facing PAWS starting Aug 1st. So OK...I made it and am clueless as to where I stand. Again, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!! Darn good to be alive.. Gods'Best, Steve
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good luck in treatment!!!
Sorry I called 911 right after leaving that awful, psychotic post(((((to all))))
Steve
Welcome back, brother.
BTW - the offer still stands. I don't know if you ever got a chance to read the posts, but MANY people here are so willing and happy to help you, if you need. The offer was, if you need ANY help finding the right doc in your area, I would be happy to help you. There IS a solution to getting you stable, and happy. I know (well, I don't know "your shoes," just my own..) but I do know finding the right help can be so overwhelming sometimes.. so if ya need, just give me a holler, ok?
Welcome back, buddy. We missed you..
with much luv,
mary
PS saying good night to all
I wish you the best in all you do and please keep us posted with your progress, okay?
hugs
tzt
Love,
Yoda
Steve
God Bless you Steve.
Tim