Well, you're talking about it annd that means that you have something you never had before, rational thought and the thought process to think it out.  
Probably by the time you got done writing that post, you made a decision to NOT use.  You can see that it will NOT solve anything so you typed instead.
We will always have fleeting moment when we want to get out of ourselves and use BUT we kow now that it will NOT make it better.  That is the difference.
This too shall pass.
The best revenge is livingAdvanced care directives right.
It works if you work it so work it you're worth it!!

thanx sounds youve been around the program for a while!!!!

Hi and Im so glad you came here to talk about it.   Im so sorry that you were hurt today!  It really hurts more when it comes from someone we love.   And I know how we get about our grandbabies!  The ol' granny claws come out! lol!

Some people, when hurt, lash out at others.  This is how they handle it.  My sister is like that.  When she is hurt she will attack someone else.

Others, like myself and perhaps like you. will hurt themselves.  I've done it through overeatingEating disorders - resources, smokingQuitting smoking
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Drug-induced hypertension.   My NA sponsor said to me one time after I had a fight with a boyfriend "so, are you going to go sit alont and smoke at 'em?".

Its a learned pattern for handling feelings.  

I am so glad you don't have any drugsChemical dependence - resources
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Drug-induced hypertension and that you are talking about it.  You are showing those who are new how to handle it when they are hurt cuz we will all experience it.

hugs
tzt

Yeah, I have 5 years sobriety from alcoholAlcohol and diet
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Drug-induced hypertension" (mostly cocaineDrug abuse) and have recently (in the past 7 months or so found myself addicted to painAbdominal pain
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Back strain treatment in AA as a VERY active member.  I could repeat the Big Book word for word but sometimes I forget to LIVE it.
I'm trying, day by day, minute by minute, second by second, to really live it!!
See, that moment has passed no?

I also feel like using so I am taking it minute by minute here.  Today is day 4 and still feeling crappy.  No energy at all!!!  I have custody of my two grandchildren and they think I have a virus.  I do, it's called being dope sickSick sinus syndrome.  I also keep reminding myself that this too will pass.  There is no way I am going to backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment done now because I really thing that day five gets better.

I keep on listening to what I call my "detox song"  Its Everybody Hurts by REM.  Youv'e got to hold on.  That is what I am going right now.  Tomorrow I have to go backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to work and I hope to make it.  I used all my sickSick sinus syndrome days when I was dope sickSick sinus syndrome and on a mission to get pills.

I have an appointment on Tuesday for the Sub. doctor.  I amj still in the air if I should go or not. The last time I really detoxed I was on 90 mg of Methadone and that detox sucks.

We have to all keep each others spirits up and make our way out of the heelish lifestyle we have been livingAdvanced care directives.  

Your thinking is that you want to drink "at" him.  Kinda like when I got mad at my wife and said, "I'll show her!"  I usually showed myself the inside of a jail cell.