Lets turn you into happy girl.  You, along with many others here, are bing very hard on yourself.  3 a day is not much it all it sounds like you are taking what you need to resolve your painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources.  I know it does not help but there are people out there who take 10 times what you do.  One thing we addicts tend to believe is that we are bad paople I kind of sensed that from your post we are not bad we have a problem and I would like to find one person in this world who doesn't have a problem.  I really believe that you can get the help you need here.  If you truly want to quit you could slowly taper off instead of cold turkey.  Three pills a day would be easy to taper off from.  I am sure the other people here can give you better advice but I am glad you came here and I will help you in any way I can.  Jules



Susan, Welcome backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment!  FibromyalgiaFibromyalgia is another one of those diseases that people do not understand and therefore are not very sympathetic to.  One of my best friends suffers from ChronicAcute vs. chronic conditions
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Muscle fatigue and I know people are not very understanding with her regarding her painAbdominal pain
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Ultrasound, normal fetus - spine and ribs is another that is misunderstood.  I hope you are feeling ok today.  Your friend Jules

Hi Sadgirl,

I really want to echo what Jules wrote to you. She is so compassionate, and has helped me be more compassionate to myself as well.



Three a day is not a lot, though I do understand what you mean about feeling the withdrawls immediately if you are late.



I was given vicoprofen for really bad backBack pain - low
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Chronic pain - resources from degenerative disc disease. I went from taking it a few times a week, to being on it round the clock, and at my most I was taking 15 a day. I definately abused them, so that my tolerance got so high, they didn't work when I needed them for painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources. I liked how they made me feel, at firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400, until I eventually needed them just to feel normal.



If your painAbdominal pain
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Inhaler medication administration for your very real painAbdominal pain
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Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
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Chronic pain - resources. If you are taking them only for painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources, and not abusing them to get high, I don't see a problem with that. If you are like me, and don't trust yourself to take them only as prescribed, then work to stay honest with your motivations to take the meds, and get support to take them for painAbdominal pain
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Still, I do understand that it can feel like hell to be addicted to something, no matter what. I still have pretty high backBack pain - low
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Chronic pain - resources, but am tapering my meds down to nothing..because I can't handle the meds appropriately right now, and my painAbdominal pain
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Motrin
Motrin cold and flu
Motrin ib sinus.

But it sounds like your situation is different, and that you really need the narcoticDrug abuse for painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources right now. Like Jules said, don't beat yourself up, and come here and talk to us when ever you need to.



lots of love,

WW

It's mighty quiet today.

I had trouble getting on to the forum this morning, my normal bookmark didn't work, so I had to type med-help into a search engine to find the forum again.



Did this happen to anyone else?



I'm doing ok today..no creepy crawlies, much less restlessRestless leg syndrome...we'll see how the night time goes.



Jenny? How are things going for you?



Earthgirl, how bout you? Things going ok?



hugs to everyone...I still need to babble lots  LOL this is sooo hard to get through.  



love,

WW

Thank you so much to responding to my post.  It means the world to me to know that someone out there understands and cares.  Yes, I do beat myself up a lot...hopefully next month I will get some concrete medical help and start tapering off the meds.  God bless the both of you!

Hello everyone!

I'm doing great still...Last night I once again tried to go without any meds at all, but still needed some to stop the restlessness, but I am down to just HALF a pill, once a day, at night.

I have a wedding weekend that I am on my way out the door for, so won't be able to post till I return on Sunday. My withdrawalDelirium tremens symptoms are pretty much gone during the days. No more creepy crawlies, no sweatsSweat electrolytes test
Sweat test
Sweating
Sweating - absent, no more diahrhea..just that danged restlessness at night.

My comitment to myself is this...as soon as this wedding is over, and I'm home, I will not take the night time dose, even if it is just half a pill. At this point I wonder if that night time restlessness is just mentally produced anxietyGeneralized anxiety disorder
Separation anxiety
Stress and anxiety about not having any in my system at all...I'm not sure. But I can take a sleepless night or two for it to mean totally being off this stuff.



My backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment hurts still. Yep. But not as bad as before. I can bear this.



Sadgirl, keep posting...we need you as much as you need us!



Earthgirl..haven't heard from you in a while, and you did ask for us to check in, so I"m checking in..how are you?



AS thanks for the strength you send. I can feel it.



lots of love to all of you!



WW

HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME AT THE WEDDING!  :)

I admire your determination an your strength, you walk proud with your headHead and face reconstruction
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Head lice
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Radial head injury up real high girl!!!!!

Lv Jenny

I read your post and my heartCongenital heart disease
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Heart bypass surgery - series
Heart disease goes out to you....I have to agree with what everyone else has written...you are beating yourself up....I was taking 30 a day (10 x that much)....i was abusing...I have nothing wrong with me...no painAbdominal pain
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Chronic pain - resources...i just liked how they made me feel, then suddenly I woke up one day, felt like **** and HAD to take my pills just to feel normal....



Maybe if you feel your getting addicted, tell your physician your concerns and maybe he can help....as said above...we ALL have problems...no-one is perfectPerfect choice....but its great you can see how addicting those things are and not get to where some of us have been....NOT a good thing...hang in there girl.....~kristen

I'm sorry you are feeling so sadDepression.  Listen to the advise of these wonderful people, they know, they've seen, they've lived it!

Try to not be so hard on yourself, you're only increasing your painAbdominal pain
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Be patientKidney diet - dialysis patients, and try to be strong! Be determined, and an answer will come in time!

((HUGS))

Lv Jenny

I can't tell You my whole story it would take days but I too need strength from coming off these meds after 4 years. I wear a rubberband around my wristWrist pain it may sound funny but everytime I feel myself driffting I smack my wristWrist pain. Yes it hurts some but it reminds me that I need to stay strong and I have way to much to live for than to take anymore pills

I'm a firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 timer on this page, but listening to all of you has made me feel less alone, less of a failure, less of a bad person.  I too had been prescribed vicoprofen for extreme backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources, probably 3-4 years ago, then one day I discovered it did more than just alleviate the physicalPhysical activity
Physical exam frequency
Physical examination painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources I was experiencing, it also performed the function of self medicationAllergic reactions to medication
Drug allergies
Drug-induced hypertension
Getting a prescription filled
Home pharmacy
Inhaler medication administration for my depressionAdolescent depression
Bipolar disorder
Depression
Depression - elderly
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Depression and heart disease
Depression and insomnia
Depression and men
Depression and the menstrual cycle
Depression in children.  The painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources, by the way, has been gone for many years, although I do still have verifiable backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment deterioration with cat scans, etc. to prove it, so it is not difficult for me to go to a doctor and obtain what I want.  Unfortunately this ease of obtaining the drugChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
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Drug abuse and dependence
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Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
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Drug-induced hypertension is stronger than I seem to be.  I no longer feel happy about anything in my life, except when I am under the influence.  On a normal day I wake up with a deep dread in the pit of my stomachAbdominal pain
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Feeding tube insertion - gastrostomy
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Ileus - x-ray of distended bowel and stomach
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Stomach.  I only feel optimistic when I know I will be taking something.  I've tried tapering off and it has helped with the panicPanic disorder
Panic disorder with agoraphobia attacks a bit, but I still feel in the grips of something so much stronger than myself.  The worst part is that my depressionAdolescent depression
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Ambien cr along with a small dose of vicoprofen in the middle of the night to get me through.  No matter what though I wake feeling dead inside and dreading the thought of another day in the grips of this power over which I have no control.  Any kind words or advice would be greatly appreciated.  I have felt so alone for so long with no one to express these feelings to, so please forgive me for the rambling.

I'm a firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 timer on this page, but listening to all of you has made me feel less alone, less of a failure, less of a bad person.  I too had been prescribed vicoprofen for extreme backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources, probably 3-4 years ago, then one day I discovered it did more than just alleviate the physicalPhysical activity
Physical exam frequency
Physical examination painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources I was experiencing, it also performed the function of self medicationAllergic reactions to medication
Drug allergies
Drug-induced hypertension
Getting a prescription filled
Home pharmacy
Inhaler medication administration for my depressionAdolescent depression
Bipolar disorder
Depression
Depression - elderly
Depression - resources
Depression among the elderly
Depression and heart disease
Depression and insomnia
Depression and men
Depression and the menstrual cycle
Depression in children.  The painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources, by the way, has been gone for many years, although I do still have verifiable backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment deterioration with cat scans, etc. to prove it, so it is not difficult for me to go to a doctor and obtain what I want.  Unfortunately this ease of obtaining the drugChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension is stronger than I seem to be.  I no longer feel happy about anything in my life, except when I am under the influence.  On a normal day I wake up with a deep dread in the pit of my stomachAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Esophagus and stomach anatomy
Feeding tube insertion - gastrostomy
Gastric cancer
Gastric suction
Gastric ulcer
Ileus - x-ray of distended bowel and stomach
Nausea and vomiting
Roux-en-y stomach surgery for weight loss
Stomach.  I only feel optimistic when I know I will be taking something.  I've tried tapering off and it has helped with the panicPanic disorder
Panic disorder with agoraphobia attacks a bit, but I still feel in the grips of something so much stronger than myself.  The worst part is that my depression