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methadone..withdrawls!!!

by erotisy, Dec 29, 2001 12:00AM
Tags: Addiction
well I've been on oxy's for a full year..then switched to methadone.."the helpful drug", well now I'm hooked to those!! I've tryed to quit many times..this is my BEST effort. Its been 2 days..with nothing!! I feel better than the oxy-withdrawls, but boy I'm still sick..I need any info on how long I'll be feeling so bad, or any info or help on my problem..Just so you know I took no more than 20mlg a day (dones)...so help .please?????/(I HAVE to do this at home..)
Member Comments (40)

by Korg, Dec 29, 2001 12:00AM
I don't know about methadone.  But I wanted to say well done my friend.  I'm working my way off of hydrocodone, and that's hateful enough.   But my heart goes out to you, and I've added you to my prayers.



Go with God, and stay strong.  Many of us here love and care about you.



Peace



Korg

by erotisy, Dec 29, 2001 12:00AM
thanks Korg!! Its a really bad day...I'm having a harder time with this than I thought. I have never prayed so much in my life....today I just sat in the shower and cryed..I want so much in life, most of all my freedom!!! thanks to all who listen.And bless all of you who share this battle.



erotisy..

by OxyDout, Dec 29, 2001 12:00AM
To: erotisy
Hey, how long were you on oxy for, how many mg a day, and how long have you been on the dones for.......  I was on oxy for a long time, then I tried to quit with the dones before, then I started taking the oxy's again, now I have been taking dones for about 6 days and I'm going to be done tomorrow, so I'm curious as to how this happened, fill me in.  Best of luck.  DON'T GIVE IN, just think, if you start back up, your going to be worse then where you began.  Keep it up, its DOABLE



GWH

by erotisy, Dec 29, 2001 12:00AM
well I was doing oxy's for about 14months or so..by the end of it I was doing uo to 80-100mg. a day..As for the dones, at first I started with 20mg aday..I've cut that in half then in half again, so I didnt think I would feel so bad...I DO!!! I just keep thinking of my kids and my freedom...How can a person have 2 "people" fighting in there head? I'm always battleing with myself..Do you understand..I'm having the worst right know>..WOULD DO ANYTHING TO MAKE THE HURT GO AWAY!!  I'm sticking it out..I asked God last night to help me find strenght,He brought me to all of you!! thank you!! erotisy!!

by erotisy, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
ahhhh....i woke up last night with a bad case of "willy's"..I had to take some muscle relaxers..it helped alittle.. I still don't think I'm gonna make it!! its 4 days...and i dont care i just want something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!erotisy

by GingerLee, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: erotisy
I have been away for a little while. I guess you must have done a little bit of reading before you decided to post here like I did. Some of the wonderful folks that were here I think have gone to a new forum. Some are still around though. Anyway, I want you to know that I hope to the heavens that you stay your course. The more of us that have a success story the more we or you can give hope to the new ones. I had a horrible night myself last night. From one bed to the couch, to the other bed, back to the couch,looking out the window, watching info-mercials and hating life and myself all the more. I have been here before but I have never had the "whatever" to make it stick. I suffer like you, like thousands... It is a horrible thought. I lost another friend too. Dead at 22-too many oxys, I will be cripple for a long time-too many oxys. It happens every day and night. We do not have to be another statistic. We have kids to raise and yes a life to live. We can be the ones to come through on the other side, and then help people who come here looking for "an it is ok, you can make it" and mean it. Maybe? Nothing about it is easy, vitamins and creature comforts help but yes it is hard. IT CAN BE DONE.It has to be possible, I want to live a little bit longer.

by OxyDout, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: gingerlee § erotisy
Hey guys, keep up the good work, I know it sucks, I know its tough but you can do it and it will be well worth it.  Erotisy I was taking up to 120-160mg a day of oxy, I just finished the dones yestereday and I'm doing well.  Trust me, when you realize how incredible it is when you can just relax with no worries of withdrawal or finding your next pill, it is amazing!!! Plus, the money that is left in your pocket!!!!!! well atleast with me, I was buying off the street.  Anyway, I hope all is well, please kepp it up, my life sucks at points and all I want to do is take a pill but I CAN'T, I WON'T LET MYSELF  and neither should you.  Good luck, write when you can.



GWH

by Metalback, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: erotisy
You have made a great decision to quit. I do not want to bring you down and/or contradict GingerLee for it is great that she took her last methadone. I didn't have a good experience withdrawing from methadone. But different folks experience different things; mostly all suffer from lack of sleep so it is best to accept that one and maybe get into astronomy LOL. My boyfriend had ticks in his legs.(By the way, he is dead, drugs.) My arms would feel something I can't put in words, but probably racing neurotransmitter stuff. I went through six months and many go about that long without sufficient sleep. That doesn't mean non-functionality, just that there are still some problems that are best cured by diversions by six months time.

I don't know how old you are, but I am 44. I got off Methadone 25 years ago. Unfortunatley, I broke my back and had 7 operations. So when I wasn't self-medicating with drinking, I hurt and barely could walk.That was a horrible time. Now, my back situation has deteriorated and I am on 180 mg Methadone from the doctors who wouldn't give me a thing when I broke my back. I am glad I have it and I wish I never took it

What is six months even if you do have trouble that long? NOTHING. I didn't have cable at night, hopefully you do. Try to detox and watch Joe Franklin (NY) I think he died. Try to take Vit.C. Any you don't use is voided out. You have to keep your health. If I can do anything for you, like not tell you what I went through,(LOL) let me know. I think you can do it. Don't wait

Metalback

by erotisy, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
I hate myself...I couldnt do it.. I'm so discusted with myself I can puke..my guilt is so overwhelming, and I understand if you all don't keep in touch. I feel like I've let so many people down..including myself..I DID!! I'm so weak, I just wanted to feel better.. How can my mind twist things around? I thought....  "I cant keep feeling this sick and moody with my kids"...HELLO DUMMY..I cant keep being an adict and a mom..god forgive me..you forgive me..I cant even see this fu*:en screen..gotta go.......

                       sorry for wasting your time and prayers.!

                                        EROTISY

by SHOTSY, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: EROTISY
Listen Up! Okay so you stumbled. It's okay. It happens. And it doesn't mean it's a no go.

I'd like to know if you've been afforded the oppurtunity to taper off your med.? Sounds like your trying cold turkey?

There are several varibles that can be used to help you thru this. I don't know if you heard of Thomas' recipe? He has many advocates to it's helpfulness. There is also another forum that you can utilize to help you thru this. I'd post the addy but I'd probaly screw it up. And forewarn you, it'll take a couple of times to get registered for some reason.

I know someone will come along to help you also. From what I've read the fourth day is the toughtest. You should give yourself credit. You made it to then. But not all is lost.

The only one that needs to forgive is yourself. Give yourself that gift. And realize you were actually doing it.

Hang in there. Maybe we can get some more help.  Shotsy

by erotisy, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: Everyone/shosty
SHOSTY..you have no idea how good it felt to see that people still care, even though I lost control and let that demon take it..I should feel great right? I finally got what I've been DIEING for..I'm not feeling good at all. I hate this ****..I hate these pills..I want this sooooo bad, I just have NO will power..no strength.. I've forgotton how it feels to be sober.. I've used these pills for many reasons..mostly for my emotional problems..I feel I can't return to "life" without them. they have been my everything!! I used to be so emotionaly ****** up I would not leave the house for weeks..I've been on every "mood-altering" drug..they dont work..I've fallen into a bad trap. Im lost within myself..have been before this and worse now. thanks for listening..really!! erotisy........

by SHOTSY, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: Erotisy
Please use the e-mail.

Sounds like some nutritnonal supplements could be helpful for you. I've a feeling a large part of the problem is your neurotransmitters. And Thomas' recipe is a godsend according to most people.

Just please use the e-mail. I think you'll also enjoy the format at the other place too.

by SHOTSY, Dec 30, 2001 12:00AM
To: JB
Wanted to send you a wish for a Happy New Year. Hoping all's well with you. Sincerely, Shotsy

by butterbeans, Dec 31, 2001 12:00AM
To: Erotisy
Please, please don't be so hard on yourself!  I know what you are feeling!  I never took any illegal drug and I only take what is perscribed to me by my doc for chronic pain, but, I take all of them too quickly.  I go through withdrawal very often and I of course hate it and hate myself at those times.  I am on the forum often, but, usually I read a lot and don't post a lot.  I have tried getting on the new forum, but, just can't seem to get registered.  I too use the drugs for emotional issues, like being shy, etc. I don't do that now though.  If I did not have the chronic pain, I feel I could stop taking them altogether, because I really feel good when I am sober.  That is until the pain gets really bad, which is all the time especially in the past year, it has gotten worse.  Do you have pain, or just addicted to the drugs???  Being an addict is an illness , just like any other illness, such as cancer, etc.  How easy is it to get rid of cancer???  Erotisy, I know that if you want to beat this you can.  A few people can do it at home by themselves, but, it sounds like you need help. This forum has helped me a lot, but, maybe you should think about rehab.  It is not something you should be ashamed of.  There are many addicts who have gotten addicted to painkillers , some of them are professionals such as doctors, lawyers, and therapists like myself.  You are human, life can be hard and I too when I was feeling emotionally let down or when I wanted to be able to talk in a large crowd, I would take the meds, as they helped me to talk . I think that is why I got addicted 7 years ago when I first started taking them.  Now, I just want to take as needed for pain, but, that is not easy.  I willstay with the people on this forum and try hard to do what is best for me.  Take care, I am here and if you need to post to talk about your situation, just keep posting. Believe me, people here understand.  Some are clean, but, they too take it one day at a time to stay clean.  I am with you all the way!!!  Start liking yourself and stop putting yourself down.  

Love Butterbeans

by erotisy, Dec 31, 2001 12:00AM
Thank you butterbeans..and shotsy!! I do beleive that I do need that extra help..rehab..ahhh I cant believe I just said that!! Anyways..the first steps are the worst right? I feel so many things right now... I listen to a song called..."outside", by staind/fred durst..it really is how I feel towards my problem and how I feel towards ALL of you..Please if you can, try to find it and listen ok? As for one day at a time...I have the most hard time with that..Its tommorow Im scared of!!  I wish all of you the same thoughts that Im going to have come 12am tonight.......THIS YEAR I WILL LOVE MYSELF,I WILL TAKE CARE OF THE THINGS I NEED TO..I WILL FIND THE STRENGTH TO QUIT..4 GOOD!!

I pray for all of us..and the people we share our lives with..thank you all again. ohh ya..butterbeans, Im glad you can be totally honest with me..telling me I need rehab is very touchy..Im sure you understand..but thank you!!Happy New Year my friends..((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))erotisy

by shane, Dec 31, 2001 12:00AM
To: eroticy
Eroticy, Please don't feel the guilt you have. It's not real but part of this incidious addiction we all (regretably) share! You have tried and you know what you want and will make it there. I have had a steel will when it came to self disapline (athletics) before surcumbing maney times to the power of addiction; to these f****** pills. I have depression and Bipoler and emotional probs just like you. I found these pills and thought I had found a cure for everthing. Like you, none of the phyc drugs did **** for me. Now I've got this addiction too! Someone on this forum wrote: " I found an escape and now I can't escape the escape". That is so true. Also a GOOD Rehab is a way to let you down easy. They know what their doing. It is nothing to be ashamed of.Please post if you have a ?. Ill try to help as, will so maney great people on this forum. Collectivly we have been through it all. God bless you and stay around! Shane

by erotisy, Dec 31, 2001 12:00AM
To: Shane/everyone
thank you...your so right about the escape thing.. Its like I feel I deserve these pills..cuz they make all the other bullshit in my life better..man!! dont these pills screw up thinking.. Thats what I mean about feeling I have two personality..ya know? Its so easy to find the excuse to go back... I've read all the letters.. and have heard many times not to be so hard on myself.. I truley cant help it..and to tell you the truth..if I dont start getting my ass straight..and forgive myself......well its really eating