I am very sorry to hear about your son dying, VicodinVicodin
Vicodin tuss is something that helps to numb the painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources and is very easy to turn to! I am very proud of your strength, it seems you have gone through quite a bit and you are fully aware of what needs to be done to stay healthy. I dont know if you believe in heaven but just keep in mind that your son is watching you and he is supporting everything you are going through right now. He is rooting for you just like we all are here! Good luck and you will be in my prayers!

Scary part is a (CHANCE OF) relapse is always lurking, but friends, lit, humor and willpower help, some helped me a little, some a lot.



I see from reading  another addictionDrug abuse and dependence board, that you (DANCIN-JUDY) received, enjoyed, have red/ and began a re-ead, after receiving free from me, "A Million Litttle Pieces," by Frey.



I am sorry you neglected to let me know you received the book. That was all I had asked you do, confirm your receipt of Frey's biography. I took time and $ from mu purse, specifically for you. Hope all else is well and on the up and up.



rwc~

I read it thrice, rwc~

I just wanted to check in a see how everyone is doing and I need to VENT--The "Beast" (part of my brainAmebic brain abscess
Brain abscess
Brain herniation
Brain surgery
Brain tumor - adults
Brain tumor - children
Metastatic brain tumor
Posterior fossa tumor
Primary brain tumor trying to leadLead poisoning me backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to hydroHydro par
Hydro-pc ii
Hydro-tussin dhc
Hydro-tussin exp-hell) has been rearing its ugly headHead and face reconstruction
Head injury
Head lice
Indications of head injury
Radial head injury for the past few days.  It's been 25 days and for some reason the "cravings" are especially tough this time-So far with the help of Rational RecoveryRecovery position - series and this board I have managed to keep the "Beast" at bay. My right arm and neckCervical spondylosis
Head and neck glands
Herpes zoster (shingles) on the neck and cheek
Irritated seborrheic kerotosis - neck
Lymph tissue in the head and neck.
Melanoma - neck
Neck lump
Neck pain
Neck pulse
Neck x-ray
Oral cancer painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources (I had an AnteriorAnterior cruciate ligament (acl) injury
Anterior knee pain
Anterior vaginal wall repair CervicalCervical biopsy
Cervical cancer
Cervical cryosurgery
Cervical dysplasia
Cervical erosion
Cervical neoplasia
Cervical polyps
Cervical spondylosis
Cervical vertebrae
Cold knife cone biopsy
Culture - endocervix Fusion several years ago) has come backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment with a vengance and my stomachAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Esophagus and stomach anatomy
Feeding tube insertion - gastrostomy
Gastric cancer
Gastric suction
Gastric ulcer
Ileus - x-ray of distended bowel and stomach
Nausea and vomiting
Roux-en-y stomach surgery for weight loss
Stomach is messed up because of all of the AdvilAdvil
Advil allergy sinus
Advil childrens allergy sinus
Advil cold and sinus
Advil multi-symptom cold I'm taking.  I know this is no excuse to try and get a refill of the hydrocodoneHydrocodone cp
Hydrocodone hd
Hydrocodone-ibuprofen
Hydrocodone-phenylephrine--The "Beast" keeps whispering in my earEar barotrauma
Ear discharge
Ear emergencies
Ear examination
Ear tube insertion
Ear tube insertion - series---"All of your discomfort can disappear with just one little hydroHydro par
Hydro-pc ii
Hydro-tussin dhc
Hydro-tussin exp--No one will know"----Wait a minute I'll KNOW--Take Care Everyone--Keep up the fight--Peace/Prayers N.O. Lady AKA Mystere



Anne

Way to go Anne...day 25 is the day my cravings started after I last had gotten clean. I gave in at day 30, telling myself "just this once for the painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources"....then it only took a few months for my abuseAlcoholism
Chemical dependence - resources
Child abuse - physical
Child abuse - sexual
Child neglect and psychological abuse
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Family troubles - resources
Laxative overdose
Signs of drug abuse to be double what it used to be.



You are three weeks clean, you are on the other side! I'm proud (and envious) of you, so hang in there and keep the beast at bay.



Karen

Hi guys-- I am not quite halfway thru the Frey book and it is AWESOME!   His description is so stark and potent: I just cannot imagine such an experience.  How did he ever survive???!!

   Anne, honey--you recognize those "false voices", so  give 'em the gate and  quit entertaining them in your mind...Is the IBU working except for the stomachAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Esophagus and stomach anatomy
Feeding tube insertion - gastrostomy
Gastric cancer
Gastric suction
Gastric ulcer
Ileus - x-ray of distended bowel and stomach
Nausea and vomiting
Roux-en-y stomach surgery for weight loss
Stomach ****? I mean, does it take care of the painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources?  What has your doc suggested that would be non-narcoticDrug abuse?  Anything?

    Try to re-focus and get your determination front and center again, because it soulnds like you're struggling a bit....Don't get scared--get MAD!! Look at that little angel your husband (does HE have a name, too???LOL)  gave you and think of how proud you have made him and how much you want to do the right thing  for the two of you and your lives together.  The damn cravings will pass and if you can wait it out just a BIT more--you will be on a more even keel and it will be a little easier. So--HANG IN THERE>  DON'T USE>>>> Write me if you want--I am a good venting apparatus......LOL take care, sweets--Love, Peazy

Hi everyone-

    

     I have not posted on this forum in quite a few months. I went to rehab in January and I am 5 months clean from a 20 a day lortabLortab
Lortab asa addictionDrug abuse and dependence. I go to NA meetings and I have a sponsor but something happened today. The firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 time in 5 months I had severe painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources and I took a lortabLortab
Lortab asa and absolutely hated every minute. I cannot believe the amount of pills I use to take. I have been exercising, eatingAnorexia nervosa
Binge eating
Bulimia
Eating disorders - resources
Necrotizing soft tissue infection
Sweating
Sweating - absent right, acupunctureAcupuncture
Alternative medicine - pain relief, massage....the whole nine yards and after I did this today to relieve the painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources I was upset and couldn't wait for the **** to get out of my system. Does this mean I relapsed? I went to a meeting tonight and didn't share about what I did. I know because I know me that I will never touch that **** again. I have had the best 5 months and I think i ruined my clean time. I need advice about this. Please give your opinions. Thank you

I wished I could answer that question thats kind of why I posted this question about relapse so some of us greenhorns could understand just what relapse is but all the doc said was I answered my own question so then I would say no you didn't relapse you used it for what it was for and you have no intentions of trying that again so if I'm answering my own questions here then let me give you what I think .You haven't relapse pass it off for a try for the right reasons. You didn't like it so don't beat yourself up about and consider your clean time for what it is and I say CONGRATULAIONS you've done well.passenby

In my opinion, NO you did not relapse.  LortabLortab
Lortab asa is intended to relieve painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources. You had painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources; you tried to get rid of it.  If you had taken a handful w/ no regard to how much or lost sight of just WHY you were taking it, then it would be different.

   Look: you have been clean for FIVE months!!  That is AWESOME!!! One stinkin' pill that's taken for painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources DOES NOT preclude your time of sobriety and DON'T you let any of the NA people tell you differently. You are DOING GREAT!!!  You still have your five months (but may I suggest that you quit counting??  Really--what does it matter?? The important thing is that you're sober TODAY. So many get caught up in that fricken" number "and forget what's actually important)  Anyway---it's good to have you backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment and keep up the good work!!!  Peazy

PEAZ YOU ARE JUST TO COOL.

Thank you for your condolences and prayers. You ask me how I felt about heaven. well normally I wouldn't post this story I don't think to many people like you talking about GOD but since I posted this question I think I'll tell it.I almost lost Jeremy about three times before this. Once he was beaten so badly and left in the snow to die but someone he knew found him and brought him home to me.another time he was drunk and he plowed in to the backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment of a car going about 45mpr. he had passed out at the wheel. That time they flew him by helocopper to a near by hospital.Then right after I had surgeryAbdominal wall surgery
Before and after corneal surgery
Brain surgery
Carotid artery surgery
Carotid artery surgery - series
Cataract removal
Cataract surgery - series
Cervical cryosurgery
Cervix treatment - cryosurgery
Congenital heart defect corrective surgery
Corneal surgery on my shoulder shoulders intensive treatment
Shoulder arthroscopy
Shoulder pain about the 1st of Aug he had taken so much drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension he was found on the side of a highway.Jeremy was raised in church and to believe in the love of GOD but at this time he wasn't sure anymore he had tried and tried to stop the drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension,vicodinVicodin
Vicodin tuss was his DOC and he just couldn't stop this I didn't understand I thought if you put your mind to it you could do anything.I left the next day with my mother just to get away from all the trouble and my shoulder shoulders intensive treatment
Shoulder arthroscopy
Shoulder pain was giving me fits. It was his 25th birthday the firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 time in his life I had never been with him on that day. Needless to say he was upset and so was I. I prayed for him that day like I had never prayed before and I told God that day if he would just give my son a chance to get things straight with him and believe again and then if he wanted to take I would make myself live with it and be thankful he made his peace.well three weeks later another incident with drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension and this time he came to me cryingColic and crying
Crying in infancy saying he needed help we had a long talk and he went into rehab he was happier than I had ever heard him when he got out all my kids were together for one of the childrensChildrens tylenol birthday he had ask for forgiviness from them for all he had put all of us through and he got it from everyone but my youngest son with whom he was the closest. He had pushed him away and told him to stay away from him.my son said thats okay bro I understand, see he had stolen from him and the rest of us to get his vikes. He had been to church that day and told me everything was ok now between him and God.The following week he got a toothBroken or knocked out tooth
Dental cavities
Fractured tooth
Tooth abscess
Tooth anatomy
Toothaches ache his faceFace pain was swollenSwollen glands and he was in painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources the dentist said he couldn't see him for 9 days but gave him 60 vicodinsVicodin
Vicodin tuss for the painAbdominal pain
Abdominal pain diagnosis
Alternative medicine - pain relief
Ankle pain
Anterior knee pain
Back pain - low
Bone pain or tenderness
Breast pain
Causes of painful intercourse
Chest pain
Chronic pain - resources. I seen him on Sat I could tell he was high and I started to cry he said mom don't worry when I get in to the dentist I swear this will be the last time I ask him if he was going to church in the morning and he said yes. I told him to be ready by 9:30 he hug me, said I love you and I'll be ready. I said goodbye and please slack off the pills.The next morning I woke up late which I never do and my huband said just finish breakfast I'll go get Jeremy.Five mins. later I sat in a kitchen chair and totally Zoned my daughter ask what was wrong I said he's went up to get Jeremy and no telling what he is going to find and she said mom why do you say that he's doing so good?I stayed in that seat without a word until my mother walked in to my kitchen took one look at me and said you already know don't you? my Jeremy was gone and God had given him that chance.So do I believe in heaven? YOU BET I DO. Do I believe my son is looking down at me with love? YES SIR I DO. Am I ashamed? YES I am but he understands. He's wore these shoes before.

Thank you for your condolences and prayers. You ask me how I felt about heaven. well normally I wouldn't post this story I don't think to many people like you talking about GOD but since I posted this question I think I'll tell it.I almost lost Jeremy about three times before this. Once he was beaten so badly and left in the snow to die but someone he knew found him and brought him home to me.another time he was drunk and he plowed in to the backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment of a car going about 45mpr. he had passed out at the wheel. That time they flew him by helocopper to a near by hospital.Then right after I had surgeryAbdominal wall surgery
Before and after corneal surgery
Brain surgery
Carotid artery surgery
Carotid artery surgery - series
Cataract removal
Cataract surgery - series
Cervical cryosurgery
Cervix treatment - cryosurgery
Congenital heart defect corrective surgery
Corneal surgery on my shoulder shoulders intensive treatment
Shoulder arthroscopy
Shoulder pain about the 1st of Aug he had taken so much drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension he was found on the side of a highway.Jeremy was raised in church and to believe in the love of GOD but at this time he wasn't sure anymore he had tried and tried to stop the drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension,vicodinVicodin
Vicodin tuss was his DOC and he just couldn't stop this I didn't understand I thought if you put your mind to it you could do anything.I left the next day with my mother just to get away from all the trouble and my shoulder shoulders intensive treatment
Shoulder arthroscopy
Shoulder pain was giving me fits. It was his 25th birthday the firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 400 time in his life I had never been with him on that day. Needless to say he was upset and so was I. I prayed for him that day like I had never prayed before and I told God that day if he would just give my son a chance to get things straight with him and believe again and then if he wanted to take I would make myself live with it and be thankful he made his peace.well three weeks later another incident with drugsChemical dependence - resources
Chemotherapy
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Drug allergies
Drug induced hypertension
Drug rash on the back
Drug rash, tegretol
Drug signs and teenagers
Drug-induced hypertension