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I started having chest pains (12 years old), my stomach was killing me every single day. I could not eat anything less it would cause severe stomach pains. I was always sickly with colds and sore throats. My knees started hurting me and I could not walk. And, from the time my Dad died, I dreamt about him every single night and would sleep walk to my closet and wake up in the closet, clinging to garments on a rack. I developed OCD (obsessive compulsive disorders). I was literally a wreck.
I had no one to talk with (40 years ago)and felt isolated and alone. Today, there is help available. Sonia, You need someone to talk with and perferably a professional councelor. You need this now!
Looking back, I was suffering with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. With your heart tests showing no heart disease, you may be suffering Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Like I did. This disorder can manifest many mnay physical ailments.
With the deaths of your parents, you have been through a lot.
Please seek help. It will and does get better but it takes time. Look to the future for that time. It will come and PLEASE do not give up. I didn't give up.
I have a wonderful family now and three beautiful grandchildren that I cherish. Life will get better, I know. I am a survivor and you can be a survivor, also.
God Bless You.
It is great news that your heart tests are normal. Focus on that and try to get some help for your depression. I do not know if you are religious, but I am praying for you, right now! Please, please take care of yourself. Taking your own life is not the answer.
When I was your age in college, I too had the same weird heart sensations. Well, 12 years later and I'm still here (: Your heart sounds normal and that is so wonderful. Life is ahead of you! Please take Nana Rose's advice too, seek some help for yourself. Take care (:
mom to 3 girls
Please do not harm yourself. I am sorry you are feeling this way. Would you please call the Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433 and talk to a caring individual???
We are sorry about your health issues, however, we believe you can get some help, and your health issues may be causing you too feel this way, as a few folks here have said already.
Please don't give up. You are needed.
Thank you,
Cristabelle
there are times in our lives when we feel we're living in hell, and it will never get better. Most of the time however, it does get better, though it seems impossible when we're as desperate and scared as you are right now. When I was about your age I fell into a similar depression