Jul 05, 2009
I have had one of the most tumultuous yet blessed weeks! At the beginning of the week, my disorder was at it's height; I was constantly crying, upset about one thing or another, my boyfriend and I were arguing almost daily, my relationship was falling apart, I was depressed beyond words and I was at a loss for what to do to make it all go away. I just wanted to curl up and die. Then I remembered something my doctor told me back in 1999 or so..."You're suffering from acute Adjustment Disorder." Yeah, yeah, yeah. Whatever. I pulled through back then and thought nothing more of the doctor's monotonous words. So, on Thursday morning, I wiped the tears from my eyes and went to the computer to research this so-called Adjustment Disorder. My jaw nearly hit the floor; I was experiencing nearly every symptom listed. I cried again, not from the frustration that had been consuming my every waking moment, but from a joy of now understanding that I can finally attribute my hell to an actual cause AND I was not alone! After talking about it with my significant other, it all made so much sense, more so for me I think, but with understanding comes ways in which to identify my stress and try and hold it at bay before I blow. The last three days have been so relaxing and serene. I've missed this!