Well its August, the 1st month I officially got to try after I lost my little peanut! I knew it wasnt going to be easy to get pregnant again..It took over 3yrs the 1st time...but I did have hope that maybe I'd be lucky and have some good come out of all the pain and disappointment...
I guess there is nothing left to do but wipe the dust off after being kicked to the ground and pick up and get ready for next month!
After all this time I just want some good to happen to me...

Ugh I swear when it rains it pours!! Get a call today from the nurse telling me that the doc doesnt think my hcg numbers are going down sufficently! So have another blood test on Monday instead of Wed next week! I asked what that meant and she tells me that sometimes the placenta can leave behind some cells that just wont die! So I will have to go in for an IV (medication) treatment in the office next week!
I was just starting to convice myself that nothing more bad can happen and trying to ease my stress and fustration and  this has to happen to bring it back up in my face! I am so aggrevated and stressed out as it is...I just want to feel like im moving forward with the ttc! And its taking forever! Ive never wanted AF to come more than now! At least if AF came I'd feel like things were moving forward and have something to look forward to! Ive just been feeling like Im stuck in this never ending nightmare for the past 3wks! The days go by but I feel like its the same day over and over again! I just want to scream! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!