Nov 06
Hi Emily.The challenge of winter is here, Im hoping its going ok for you. I took a lead from your steam room pain therapy thingy and have been pushing my pain barrier. It really does work and I dont have the daily dread of pain any more. I can push through the hard days better now and the pain is not so much the centre of my life that it was. Still a lot of pain but the resentment has greatly decreased. Its easy to just do less at this time of year but I dont think it helps.keeping up momentum is hard but worth some effort.Ive also discovered that self-validation helps us accept our feelings more easily and that those feelings then demand less attention.Love to you Emily, my thoughts are with you this winter.
Oct 30
Just a quick note to say hi! Hi....I'm trying to get off of tramadol myself...I take about 12 a day (prescribed 8) and starting to taper. Just came across your journal and will be reading it. Good luck to you
Jim
Jim
Oct 29
Thank you...Thank you...I could not have done this without this site..Thank God you started it.. love and peaceful dreams to you...
Oct 26
Just a quick note to say hi! I am now on day three of no tramadol and I want to thank you and your posters in helping me see the light. I did not know how bad this stuff was for me till I read these posts and it brought me to tears and I quit taking it. I have been on it for three years now so the withdraws are not fun but they are better than living my life worrying about running out. Thank you so much and I wish you and your posters all the best in thier recovery. Please say a prayer for mine as well.
Oct 12
Em, I hope this finds you happy and healthy. I sent you a couple of messages last week because the current thread is getting REALLY long and slow. It's now over 250 posts and if you receive this, PLEASE please please start a new thread ASAP. I owe a lot to you Em. As much as I would prefer you to do this, some of us here have developed a "back up plan" to ensure that the good work you have begun will go on in your absence until you return. Please let us hear from you. (hugs) Fred
Sep 13
Hi Emily,am wondering how the benzo w/d is going for you..I see you havent posted lately and am hoping you are ok.
Love to you...Kev.
Love to you...Kev.
Aug 25
Thank you so much for posting. each time you post you add another bit of information that we all need. You my Dear...are very strong and have been sent from heaven...Everyone is here for a reason and yours is to help others....You do it so well and with such grace... My God bless you...
Aug 18
Life tests our capacity to respond. Luckily I have good advice from madmen!! To embroider a scabbard,a point twice concealed....stabba stabba! Being clean is another set of challenges altogether. My back pain is reduced in perspective by lifes existential challenges,which at least feels like a positive change,details not withstanding lol.
I saved someone from benzos this week. they declined to take any after I showed them this site. Chalk one up Emily.Chain effect.Love scores a thousand silent victories. Soon it will achieve yours.
Love and peace,Kev.
I saved someone from benzos this week. they declined to take any after I showed them this site. Chalk one up Emily.Chain effect.Love scores a thousand silent victories. Soon it will achieve yours.
Love and peace,Kev.
Aug 18
Oh my Emily! I don't know you girlfriend...but i hope to get to know you! I can't wait until i can testify to the fact that i am 200+ free from tramadol...im fighting that demon now...when u pray please pray for trammy-mammy! Keep it up!!!!!
Aug 12
Thanks for the note, Emily. I appreciate it! :) I hope all is well, I don't check in as much...seems like you have a LOT of new people joining everyday. :) I'm happy to see so many people come here because I know that with your site, they will get the hope and support that they need.... I hope you're doing well...Take Care. ~Amy :)
Aug 05
Also Emily....did I read that you used honey in the morning for energy? Can you tell me the amount? And is there anything at all to do about the sneezing? I've been sick for about 10 days....stopped the tramadol 2 weeks ago and then started taking vicodin to combat that nervousness....its such ****...its a vicious cycle, but I want to stop all of it and not take anything but vitamins. Imagine that! Its all fear of withdrawals and not being able to have the energy to take care of my kids...that's all it is. We psyche ourselves out b/c of the withdrawals. So when I stopped the tramadol, I got sick about 5 days later...then read about the bronchitis thing, but my face and eyes still feel swollen when I get up in the morning...like I am so congested.Did the zpac but no relief.Any ideas?
Aug 05
Hi Emily, thanks so much for your response. Wow, I am not very computer savvy and i wondered if my message even went through.
Actually, I spent hours reading your journal, and I found a lady who had done the same thing I did....I was actually on the suboxone treatment after I had stopped methadone for pain (another very nasty drug....I gained 75 pounds on that ****), and I panicked when I stopped the suboxone b/c....you know...who's going to take care of my 3 kids, and how will I work, and how will I function? All that stupid stuff that you tell yourself. So I started tramadol and took it for 3 months....way too much, too...surprised I didn't have a seizure. Anyway, I am going to try the B12...thank you SO much for the suggestions.
Actually, I spent hours reading your journal, and I found a lady who had done the same thing I did....I was actually on the suboxone treatment after I had stopped methadone for pain (another very nasty drug....I gained 75 pounds on that ****), and I panicked when I stopped the suboxone b/c....you know...who's going to take care of my 3 kids, and how will I work, and how will I function? All that stupid stuff that you tell yourself. So I started tramadol and took it for 3 months....way too much, too...surprised I didn't have a seizure. Anyway, I am going to try the B12...thank you SO much for the suggestions.
Aug 05
hjayne,
I totally feel your pain. I am 39 with 3 kids and wonder how in the world I got myself into this mess. I had to break down and tell my fiance, who said I damaged the trust in our relationship, but its such a lonely secret to have. I think you will find that having the support is better than being so alone in this horrible little evil world of tramadol...or any pain med for that matter.
Can anyone tell me what you can do for the nervousness? I am a nurse, and its driving me crazy.
Thanks.
I totally feel your pain. I am 39 with 3 kids and wonder how in the world I got myself into this mess. I had to break down and tell my fiance, who said I damaged the trust in our relationship, but its such a lonely secret to have. I think you will find that having the support is better than being so alone in this horrible little evil world of tramadol...or any pain med for that matter.
Can anyone tell me what you can do for the nervousness? I am a nurse, and its driving me crazy.
Thanks.
Aug 01
I am on a measley day1 of tramadol cold turkey; but I thoroughly enjoyed reading you're journals. They have given me hope in these dark days - thank you.
& congrats on ur achievement!
& congrats on ur achievement!
Aug 01
ps-I love your roses. Unbelievably intense! Even vincent van gogh would need shades!!!! Burst of life. Be careful the succulents dont mutate and devour you...its sounding a bit 'little shop of horrors' lol..
Jul 31
Hi! This is my first time writing after lurking for quite awhile! Thank you sooo much for this! I am falling apart (on tramadol) and have a wonderful life...two beautiful young children, loving husband and beautiful home....all that! And yet I got hooked...right now I am fighting back the tears and knot in my stomach. I am about to go pick up my kids from camp...and their friends so don't have but a minute..but I'll be back! I keep on almost breaking down and telling my hisband as this whole thing makes me feel so lonely. I thought the pills made me a better "me." I lost a ton of weight, had more energy and was friendler and more cheerful...also much less high-strung. But now I just feel stupid for this and out-of-control. Every time I've tried to stop I would get soooo sick. Thank you! Me
Jul 30
Hi Emily. It was great reading your latest posts.Incredibly fortifying. You totally pinned it on the wall re MJ re Drs.You also redefined the term 'back in the room'. I try not to do politics;but I love yours!
Big love to you ((((Emily)))).
Big love to you ((((Emily)))).
Jul 21
Hi Emily. How is your garden doing?How goes it with the benzo's? Weather is really screwed in east uk and many crops are running late. alternating wind and heavy showers are taking a toll.Also very few sunny days. On the plus side I have earned enough cash to move so Im searching cheap rural locations...fingers crossed. Would love some 'news form LA'!
Jul 03
Dont think that I ever told you how great you do with the tamadol post and journals....its way past time for that! And rest assured that you have most likely helped a lot more people that just come by to read things and dont participate. Thats the way I approached things a while back. Way to go and have the absolutely best Fourth of July holiday possible... eagle
Jun 29
Thank you for beginning and continuing your journaling, which helped me learn of this horrible tramadol wd.
Jun 28
Thank you for everything! This morning I hit a new low..Woke up crying...bad dreams....thank you so ,much for all of your wonderful support. "I was sure that I was losing my mind and had entered into the offical"nut case state" I am hoping that this depression will pass soon. Being a mom of 4 and grandmother of 10 I am always the one they all come to for advise. All I want to do now is crul up in a ball and sleep. Could the ty pm be causing some of the depression? Just a thought... hugs to you sweet girl..I hope your feeling well..
Jun 28
Just a quick note to say hi! Happy Sunday...I'm over 90 days out and ..I'm having an awful time with depression..Is normal? I posted a saga of what is going on in my life the past few mos on the blog this morning..To say the least I've been crying and VERY depressed..any help ..I would like so much...sorry for spelling and writing..I've been crying...
Jun 21
Emily,
THANK YOU. I am on day 9 of DEMON DRUG w/d and I your posts on the other site have helped me immeasurably. I am still exhausted, but getting better, and you taught me so much about this drug. I am a Veterinarian and didn't even know about the multi-modal effects of Ulfriggingtram in the body. I'm pathetic! Congrats to you and keep on keepin' on, sister. Just had to find you to say thank you so very, very much. :') xo
THANK YOU. I am on day 9 of DEMON DRUG w/d and I your posts on the other site have helped me immeasurably. I am still exhausted, but getting better, and you taught me so much about this drug. I am a Veterinarian and didn't even know about the multi-modal effects of Ulfriggingtram in the body. I'm pathetic! Congrats to you and keep on keepin' on, sister. Just had to find you to say thank you so very, very much. :') xo
Jun 17
Hi Emily.. Thank you soooooo much for the information on the zanex. I will be tapering soon. I really want to get completely over the w/d from Tram. How long was it before you started your taper off of Klon after taper from Tram? I have been off Tram for about 90 days I think? I feel just ok ..but still not complete...If you know what I mean.
Jun 17
Hi Emily, I really want to thankyou for enabling this life line for so many....I am now nearly 14 days off the horrid tramadol, and can honestly say that it is because of your profile, you and the others that I was able to gain the strength and encouragment to do it. Until I stumbled onto this site, I was so confused, because I didnt realise just how wide spread this particular addiction was....my Dr. told me it was just in my head and I needed a psychiatrist, beacause Tramadol wasnt physically addictive!! So you can imagine my relief when i found this site and realised just how wrong he was!!!! Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou xxx
Jun 12
Thank you for everything! I really needed the pep talk today. I'm still trying not to cry at work. My God have I been that awful to live with during Ultram withdrawl? I'm about 60 something days out and feel that I really need to recharge on the weekends. Husband could care less and wants us to run like "jack rabbit's "all weekend long. Well I'm damed tired trying to manage a huge amount of staff, teachers and students. I have a mos. coming up of vacation time. During that time I'm going to try and taper the zanax again. I have felt pretty well all these years on the same amount of zanax, I'm just wonderding if all this DRAMA that I'm having in my life now is because I am still with drawing from the Ultram? I will keep everyone posted as to what happens next in the" land of the large."
Jun 08
Hi Emily i joined up today
Just want to say THANK YOU so so much for all your wonderfull advice and for sharing experiences.
Im at day 6 of my tapering down period currently on 2x50gm tablets daily.
Next step is 2x25mg tabs a day?
Do you know if the next step will be as hard as the first?
Marc
Just want to say THANK YOU so so much for all your wonderfull advice and for sharing experiences.
Im at day 6 of my tapering down period currently on 2x50gm tablets daily.
Next step is 2x25mg tabs a day?
Do you know if the next step will be as hard as the first?
Marc
May 29
Hope you feel better soon.Thanks for sharing your day...I thought I was the only one that had several things break down at once. 4 kids 6 cars out of gas with calls from all the kids "mom can you Help?" cellphones lost all in one week..Thought I was going to run away....but I think that week I had the flu...
