Aug 25
Just a quick note to say hi! where you been???? I have been alittle depressed and lost myself...43 days YEAH today for me...i have been trying to stay focused ,so much **** going on in my life right now...its amazing i stayed clean,but i did and thats all that matters...so how is everyone????
Aug 23
Just a quick note to say hi!how are you..... me, i am a bit better today...42 days and feeling real good about that YEAH..... well i made it threw another friday clean ...its not too bad of a weekend .... doing a little drinking , not much but just relaxing
Aug 22
hello/... things are a bit better today,its friday YEAH...41 days clean..and my 7th friday clean WOW...I have come a long way and i'm sure i have a ways to go..LOL...my daughter was in a fight in prov.,fight was over and the girl came at her with a knife stabbin' here inside the car...BAD...the detectives are actually workin' on it now cause i know a few peolpe in hi places..unfortunately thasts what it comes down too.....bfs. okay we have been arguing over things that actually should not even be an issue...he accuses me of lots of things( which i am 100% not doing),its hard for him to believe me....but at least he is trying,i have to remind him its me i'm doing this for,noone else
Aug 14
Just a quick note to say hi! how are you?? me ..hangin' in there...33 days today wow...i should be happy, but kinda in the dumps today...i am trying to stay focused and be happy for being able to stay on the right track i believe everything in life happens for a reason good or bad....its all about staying on the right course!!!!! my honey thinks i relapsed yesterday NEVER..so it makes me think he don't believe me when i tell him things it bums me out...sooo right now i am trying to gather myself and know thaat i'm not lying to him or especially not to myself....i can wake up evry day and know that i have been clean from any pills for 33 days YEAH, as i told him i cannot change my past,its hard for me sometimes to live with it.
Aug 08
You're in my thoughts .how are you??? ME I have definately seen better days!!! my son is killing me, blaming me for alot of things in his life...its killing me, i almost slipped today.27 days and almost...I am so digusted with everything...i'm not to sure what myself is feeling now but way too much anxiety...the thought of slipping after 27 days made me so sick, IO can't shake the feeling..*****..then i heard my honey doesn't want me living with him..can u believe that?? I haven't left his house in a week and a half..oh my god..tryin' to hang in there
Aug 04
how are you??? me i am hangin' in there....23 days today YEAH....body is probably close to detox mind I DON"T THINK SO>>>>LOL i had a rough weekend...fighting with my boyfriend...my daughter , going to be moving her back home...sad stories ..but i managed to stay sane, not in jail, and most important CLEAN....how idon't know...it'll all work out
Aug 04
Sorry to hear about the pregnancy. I am so stressed out right now. My little sister has 3 kids, been divorced twice already and is getting married again, and she is 26. She is the type of mom that does nothing. My mom and I take care of them and I have 3 kids. So most of the day, I have 6 kids. I am so tired. So between the stress and lack sleep, my digestive system is so messed up. The good news is, my husbands crohn's is not bothering him at all right now. I better go, I have a 2 page paper to type up.
Jul 31
Just a quick note to say hi! Last Friday we ended up back on the emergency room and finally saw a doc who wanted to find out what was going on. They did a CT scan and he had his first experience with morphiene. The results from the CT was he was having such a bad flare with his Crohn's that part of his intestines were almost swollen shut. He was on Lortab all last weekend. Still have no idea what the smell was, but the doc said it could have just been the beginning of this flare up. All is going better. Busy with school and the kids. And trying to find a place to live on a very little budget. How is everything with you?
Jul 30
You're in my thoughts ..how ya feeling??? good i hope ..i am hangin' inthere day 18..can you believe it,/....sometimes i can't
Jul 28
today is day 16 for me YEAH...feeling okay...trying to keep myself busy...my boyfriend weny back to work today( after 2 months) i kinda got used to him around, hes worried about me, but he has no need to, i am strong and i am all set being all doped up. So I deal with my back pain, which is absolutely killing me today, i try not to think about it....how was your weekend??? TOO MUCH RAIN oh my god...i did absolutely nothing, laid around all weekend, very relaxing...how are the kids???
Jul 27
YEAH... another weekend i survived lol this rain has got to go... making me very lazy....well day 15 oh my god its really unbelieveable...its amazing what i can really do when i put my mind to it....im alittle stressed with my kids this weekend,kinda had a spat with my honey toodouble whammy ....but i made it through without using so its all good....hopefully you had a nice weekend and all is well with the kids and hubby...oh lets not forget you.....
Jul 25
journey to the center of the earth...i think the last 3d movie i seen what friday the 13th
Jul 25
giddie up.... i believe that i am a big girl who knows right from wrong, a few buds won't hurt LOL... ACTUALLY I THINK MY HONEY IS TAKING ME TO IMAX TO go see that new 3d movie...i'll drink when i get home
Jul 25
buds are working for me.. i can totally function and i really don't forsee a problem smokin'....i don't bother any one..LOL/// the medicinal values are unbelieveable...NO SIDE EFFECTS....NO WDS. lol
Jul 25
i actually live in a good area of town...our side don't lose power...but the rains and lightning were incredible...that tornado that hit in barr. is 5 minutes away from my house...alot brush and sticks fell down...we needed the rain...the kids are doin okay...you just realize all the yrs you were getting high they really weren't listening to you...now that i am straight???do they even like me??LOL.. i just keep hangin in there...i will probably do my usual fri. nite(it really wasn't that bad last week) i made it threw, lots of budweiserws...LOL i have to watch out now, i get drunk quick and actually get a hangover the next day LOL...oh welll
Jul 25
I am feeling okay..lotta back pain right now. OW!... It'll pass...hangin' in there, thats all I can do...and yes the sun is shining today YEAH....i still feel blah......well today is day 13...( friday the 13th) LOL.... wow i gotta tell ya ..i am really proud of my self! I have made it this far and i don't care whjat anyone says..talking about it does help...so, 2nd friday nite without pills...cranky...its like my body knows, its crazy...well... how are you doing? great feeling to no we are 1 more day through CLEAN YEAH.....I just can't wait to get rid of these crappy feelings
Jul 23
You are in my thoughts and prayers. isn't amazing how really strong we really are...you know as strange as it is GOD DOESN'T GIVE US MORE THAN WE CAN HANDLE...I think sometimes god thinks i am wonderwoman.LOL it only makes us stronger, thats what i think
Jul 23
how are you feeling today??? kinda soar from the crappy weather....day 11 YEAH..hangin' in there..my head is starting to clear out somewhat...my brain is actuallt starting to work again..LOL..HOPEFULLY KIDS AND HUBBY ARE WELL...STAY STRONG
Jul 22
THINKING ABOUT YOU...HOW ARE YOU AND THE KIDS?? I HAVEN'T KILLED MINE YET...LOL TRYING TO DEAL WITH THE EVERY DAY PAINS AND STRESSES...SOME ARE SO MUCH EASIER... DOES YOUR HUSBAND TAKE MEDS FOR THE CROHANS DISEASE?
