About Me: Male, 28, Freeland, PA, member since Oct 2012
I am from a small town, where I lived till 12/20/12 when i went to rehab in harrisburg. I got clean and moved into a recovery house right down the street. Im a small town kid in a big city, i feel like im entering a new world.
[More] I am an active member of AA and NA and it is such a privedledge to be a part of something. With each day that passes, i learn to love myself a little more, for once i could look someone in the eye when i meet them. I am worth this and have great qualities. Tend to be more introverted, but when i get comfortable, i dont shut up.
When i joined this site i was down and hurting. I remember that inevitable moment i always knew deep down would come. Squeling. "someone.....help", wishing i was dead to save myself and my family the shame. I remember wishing that i could just erase any memory of me from peoples minds so i wouldnt hurt them when said goodbye permanently. I just wanted to curl up in a dark hole and wither away to death. Now. I dont want to die today.I can see beauty in the world, people, places, and ideas. I notice when someone smiles or their eyes are overrun with joy. there is nothing more important to me, and it fills me up in ways i cant describe. I can feel today, Im human again. i see miracles happen everyday. People who wouldnt stand a chance staying clean on their own, somehow manage to get 1 day sober, when every neuron in the brain is literally screaming at them. Its miraculous to see it happen, and it happens everyday on this website. I didnt get clean because of my will, i would still be killing myself w/o this site, Narcotics Anonymous, and the divine.
Unfortunately there are many addicts still suffering right now, and they need our help. If youre reading this and have been in the deprived state of addiction, use your knowledge to help others, who knows, you might just save their life. We need to educate.
Clean since 12/29/2012!!
have somewhat of an interest in golf, bowling, and hockey. I'm not a hugh sports buff, but have some interest.I love the ocean, hopefully someday i could be close to it. Im 25 y/0 male and not really sure what my sexual orientation is any more to be honest i don't know who i am or what i need. Im an active member of NA, and was in rehab for drug and alchohol addiction. I stumbled on this sight a week before i went to rehab, and a lot of people helped me and they still do, if you want to chat need help or think you can help me, don't be afraid to comment!
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WAY TO GO.....Great infomation I knew about PAWS but have not looked into it you now helped me....Keep up the good work.....
God Bless You
Just a quick note to say hi! I was going over my notes from clean and I guess I did say her!!!!But brain is still comeing around you know firing up...ha ha Keep in touch. I went into post but no one is back...
vickie I am going to give the moose out here a big kiss....ha
Just a quick note to say hi! I know you are not a her. I follow your post because of who you are but I am not very good at typeing and when I went to school I was either high or ditched school to get high I must of missed the english, grammer and spelling classes Ha! . I told clean ks that If I knew what I was doing on here I would of made my name moose lips, gunsmoke, smokengun, summerrain, whitesummer.....Now she notes me and calls me moose lips Ha! You can to if you want I'll start a new nick name instead of MAD VIC That is what I was called when I was doing crank/booze I was nuts for years after I lost my bother on christmas day... Natural cause. Although you can go figure how many people I have lost to this disease. Keep in touch
God Bless the moose lips..
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