About Me: Male, 24, london, United Kingdom, member since Aug 2009
im michael im 21. in august 08 i started to diet and run to gain fitness. i discovered i had nerve pains that felt like the neves was burning and really really itchy. i then realised just walking had a little pain. the physio thought she diagnosed me. it is now august 0
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[More]9 a year later. last month i had a mri scan and a nerve test ( nerve test conducted in my legs).
i have to wait till september 9th to see a neurologist as the last specialist didnt know what was wrong with me. anyway. i started on some useless anti inflammatory. i went back and got put on tramadol.At first it was heaven. id get waves of drowsyness that felt a little pleasureable. ( i take 8 x 50 mg a day ). this kind of helped ease the pain. As of now i get nerve pains in my feet up to my legs my back my hips my hands my wrists sometimes rarely in my jaws when i eat.i been on them about a month or two. one night someone rang my mobile and that night i couldnt sleep. ( ive had seriously bad sleep since doctors gave me ritalin and then dexedrine ( DEXAMPHETAMINE) because they thought i had adhd. So
my sleep went seriously messed up and because of this i suddenly dropped taking the tablets initially until i sorted my sleep out. 2 days clean i was living in pure hell.
i was cold and hot and had the most disgusting sweat. i felt sick and had flu ish type conditions i new immediatyl why i am not stupid. the doctor has actually made my intial problems worse. the stress and anxiety has made my neck and shoulders fill as stiff as concrete. ive realised a really hot bath with clary sage sea mineral bath soak ( radox ) fixes all my problems although i started getting nerve pain a hour after the bath. i felt in heaven in the bath. im considering have about 2 or 3 baths a day now.
i have just thrown away all my tramadol they are not beating me. i havent been to bad until yesterday
i tried to describe to my mum wat i was going through she blocked hear ears and made loud noises. i went to my room and cried and rang my dad saying i cant live like this anymore. i felt like taking all my tramadols like 100 and just sleeping for ever. dont worry i am not this stupid. i actually was so tense and so sad in pain i threw up last night.
i feel totally alone now. not only have i been at home for the last year doing pretty much nothing its so depressing being 21 and not be able to work go to the gym , play football.
i think stress from my mum and other contributing factors brings back the cold turkey feelings. JESUS the sweat is un bearable. i can live with the pains of my nerves and back. it has been a year now. its half as bad as dealing with coming of tramadol. i actually think a hot bath works better for my nerve pain then the tramadols. why do i keep thinking about death? whats up with all these random thoughts jumping into my head. my whole body right now feels like a giant bag of sweat. my left leg the nerve is on fire. my back feels like someone has hit me with a sledge hammer. welcome to a day in the life of mike.
please if anyone has gone through similar things to this or has any ideas for help please tell me. i feel very alone on this subject.
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