Eileen I am going to finish this in a message,look for it Okay
Eileen,You dont ever have to be sorry with me for anything you do.I will never judge you and if there is something that will help you get a quality of life that is better then you have now,I want you to take it.A muscle relaxer is not a relapse,please dont worry about that.Its not an opiate and you will be fine.I am happy to hear you got a good nights sleep out of it,hope it helps to ease he pain as well.Its time we both got better news about our conditions,Mine I hope comes on the 9th when I meet with the surgeon,and yours when you get the results of all your blood work.That sleep study sounds great,a mini vacation,where you do nothing but sleep,sign me up.Mind sharing a room LOL.
Honestly Eileen,I really think if I start again,I wont be able to stop.I would lose so much.My wife cant go through that again ,and I cant let my kids do it either.I would lose the friendship of someone named Eileen who means so much to me,because I wouldnt be able to face her anymore.She is a woman who day in and day out is in more pain then I am and she has resisted everything that would make it tolerable.I stopped taking my Suboxone just so the Drug would get me high,thats how much I wanted it.But as soon as I got home,I took my dose.I made it this time,but dont know if the next time I will also,after surgery I will really have a test,I hope I can do it,with support from you it really makes me try.Thank you Eileen for all you have done for me
Much love and hugs
Nick
Hi Eileen
I had the discogram today,and have to tell you It hurt like hell.I never felt so much pain in my back before.They went to each level and injected each disc with a contrast,causing so much pressure to replicate your pain,so they cant numb me up before hand,I have to tell them how bad it hurts and where.Out of 4 levels only one did not hurt,3 almost sent me off the table,as did the time they hit a nerve with the needle.It took about 2 hours of agony then I had a CT Scan.
After they wheeled me back to recovery,thye asked me how I felt and told them still in a lot of pain.They said they would give me a shot of Dilaudid,and my eyes lit up.I looked at my wife,saw the look in her eyes,and told them ,no,I will be okay.I couldnt do that to her again.