I wont go to one around here because my ex-boyfriend just relapsed after 3 years and he is back in meetings and goes to a lot of meeting at different places but we have issues and it wouldnt be cool if we ran into each other because it took him a while to stop trying to contact me and we havent spoke in 2 months or so and I want it to remain that way. I know a litte bit about AA from him. Anyway I will stop talking now...lol. I hope you are well..talk to you soon. Keep up the good work. Stay strong!
I know some people who have been clean for years and they are sponcers and help so many people. You sound like you were meant to help others. It's very unfortunate you had to go through everything you had to go through and are still going through it but maybe you had to so you can help others. I believe everything happens for a reason. If you were to relapse (which I hope you dont of course) I hope you know you can tell me and I wont think any different of you. Too bad we dont live close to each other because I would like to go to a meeting.I cant go alone Im too much of a chicken and I would like to see what it is all about .
Congratulations on another day clean and on the closing of your new house. Buying a house can be so stressful. Sorry youre having a rough time right now. I wish I had words of wisdom for you but you are better at that than I am. I know I am happy for you and I dont know you well but you seem to be very strong willed and it sounds like you want to be clean and you will do anything to make that happen. Im sure you have a lot of friends and family you can talk to but you are always welcome to vent on me about anything. All I know is you should be very proud of yourself and living a clean life will make you and your girl and your family so happy.
But then of course I just take another pill. What the hell am I thinking? How did you detox? Did you ever go to a place to detox? I know so many people in detox and half way houses and I feel so bad for them and then I look at myself and I am so happy Im not that bad, I know that sounds selfish but its true. But I know it can get that bad and that's what needs to stop. I know people who have lost everything. I havent lost anything and still live a normal life (kinda) so maybe I give myself the excuse not to stop. I know I keep going back and forth that I know I need to stop but I dont want to. I dont know I am so upset. My mood is off when Im not on the pills. I hate this... Lacie