Hey there! I just saw the notes you left for me...Not sure if these are recent or not, but thank you. Thank you for writing and giving great advice. Because I am absolutely terrified and know that I can not do the W/D without some form of medication. Either Xanax(as you suggested) or suboxone or something...anything. I hope you're doing well. Where are you in your recovery?
Best wishes,
Bode
You may have to try a few meetings before you find one that "fits" you. In my city - I stay out of the downtown area and head to meetings in the suburbs. The first meeting is hard, but once you realize it is a room full of folks just like you - you will settle in. You can call AA and ask any questions - they will even have someone meet up with you for the first few if you want. Generally someone your gender and age to talk to you ease you through the door.
Getting sober is one thing - staying clean and sober is a whole different battle!
Hang in there.
Just a quick note to say hi! Hey Doug, thanks for the nice note. I cannot think 1 week into the future let alone 30 years!!! I hope everyday that I can maintain a drug free existence. My nature is that I like to mood alter and have been intermittantly doing for 30 years. I suspect there will be trials and tribulations throughout my life. Now is the time that I need to learn how to deal with those things. I've been going to a psychologist. and relying on this site.
Take care, Gerty
I just read your post - and I you sound like me 10 years ago - the problem is - we are at the same point now - I am about 30 days clean from tram - about 6 months from alcohol and other pain meds. I am an addict. It took me years to come to terms with it - to stop fighting it, being embarassed by it, trying to control it. I knew it 10 years ago - and now at 40 I am starting to deal with it.
I wish I had those 10 years back - feels like wasted, foggy time. I now go to AA and have overcome one of the hardest things - being okay with who I am - I can't change or control the fact that I am an addict and always will be - once I accepted it, I was able to start moving forward.
Hang in there.