Sounds like a real low self esteem issue. My guess is there are other things in your life that you may not be aware of that contribute to your habit. I've been where you are, and let me assure you, it's not the end of the world. If you'd like to chat and ask questions, let me know and I'll give you my msn address. Oh, and I think you read my first message wrong. I didn't call myself dad. I just said I'm old enough to be your dad. I've got 4 boys of my own, and their a handful, thanks.
Cheers
Dave
Just a quick note to say hi! Hey bud. Came across your profile by fluke. Although old enough to be your dad, thought I'd drop a line of encouragement. First of all, masturbation is not evil. As long as they are not focused on a person that you know that if opportunity arose, it could lead to action. Many people use masturbation as a means to try and get sleep. Those long nights ain't fun, and the old pull the putt does give temporary relief. Try exercising through the day; don't eat junk food at night, avoid napping during the day if possible. Lots more options. If ya need to talk, let me know.