About Me: Female, 56, lexington, KY, member since Feb 2010
Unemployed for over a year, after working full time since I was 15.
No good outlook for jobs, I have a BA in Fine ART... worst possible degree to have.
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[More] Old positions were in sales and special events, but I simply cannot get on the phone and cold call, and am a complete failure when I've tried to do this.
Have been on unemployment, thank goodness and keep looking every day... it get's quite disheartening as you can imagine. My moods, even on meds are hard to control. I've had to quit seeing my Psychiatrist ( with no insurance she wants $180 per visit CASH ) I have turned to the local health department and they have NO Clue as to how to treat me. They totally took me off my sleep medication because ( I didn't need it ) I get very frustrated with the system and worry about people who are not only poor, but mentally ill, have no car, have no support and have to try and "work" the system. It's hard but I've been lucky to even get to a doctor and receive counseling for $10 a visit through local comp care.
I try to be "good", and to be good that means spending a lot of time home alone, if I go out
I tend to want to drink and that leads to acting out and my friends don't want to be around me. It has also led to a couple of suicide attempts.
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I guess it's not unusual to fall behind, but I just don't have the energy and I think, who really cares?
My moods go up and down, up and down, so this is normal...
Chalk it up to my mood swings, haven't felt like keeping my chart, depression has set in, crying, all the standard things. Not wanting to clean the house, not wanting...