About Me: Male, 59, Los Angeles, CA, member since May 2010
Sometimes I feel confident that we are all reborn after death. Sometimes I think that it all just stops. Either way it seems fine to me. The problem is thinking about life. I don't get afraid about this, but more upset because either way this is the only one I get as "m
[More]e". Some might say that is just the "ego" creating fear in my heart. Well it is doing a fine job of it. Because my depression has overshadowed everything and pretty much determined the course of my life for the last 30 years. Oh I take responsability for allowing it to, but whatever the truth about that is, the facts are that I am sitting here in the wastelands of the life that "I" have been given. I need some self-forgiveness but for me that is the gold ring I just can't grasp. So here I am trying to find a way to be in the present and trying to make "now" my focus and working on making the time I have left something nice at least.
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You're right your situation exactly mirrors mine. Right now I am in the darkest place in my life. No future. I see everyone getting along in their lives but I am still stagnating, not going anywhere. The emotional pain is too terrible to bear many times. I will call my doctor tomorrow that I have gotten worse, don't know what he can do for me, but that is my last resort
Thanks for your note, I don't feel quite alone anymore.
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