About Me: Male, 35, Palmerston North, New Zealand, member since Feb 2011
I was into music in a big way 3years ago. Every 2nd weekend i was out there DJ in the local bars around town, then it all went down hill. Family problems, transgressional relationship issues, well-meaning, unintentionally hurtful friends, drug addiction, depression & a
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[More]nxiety got the better of me to the point where, on nights i was giging i was in tears even before i got out of the car to play. I have nearly lost contact with all those who were important too me. 2years i've spent at home, mostly alone, sleeping on the couch most nights till 8months ago when my 15year relationship fell apart. That left me feeling broken & confused, unable to cope with my kids, especially my 4year old son who, before the break up, was my entire world!! 6months later i'm living with my parents, got custody of my son & don't regret my instigation of the separation, just the way in which my X decided to go about it. My goal was to separate on even terms.For us both to remain friends & single until we all, kids included, felt comfortable about our new circumstances. Unfortunately the situation didn't resolve so cooperatively. She was everything but compliant when it came to remaining single even before we had split up. Not my ideal but we all deal with loss in our own way. The question is now, "How to continue alone in this harsh, uncivilised environment we call the Swamp?"
Suggestions welcome. Thanks for reading...
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