I was actively alcoholic from age 14 and called myself Whiskey Dan. I used alcohol to cover deep anxiety. When I turned 40 I sobered up in AA, but never got past the anxiety. After so college and high school teaching I landed a full time position as a professor. Alo
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[More]ng the way I had been abusing Xanax, so when the stress of college life hit, I started to abuse Xanax in a Whiskey Dan very big way--literally handsfuls of the biggest tabs I could find. That lost me the job and my wife cared for the vegetable I had become for two years. It was a big event when finally I actually drove the family car out by myself for groceries. I have back problems with herniated disks and doctors have prescribed the miracle drug Vicodin. I abused that for two years, went cold turkey and stayed off them for a year. Now the back pain is back and so is my addictive personality. Later this summer 2011 perhaps I will have surgery. I am hoping not to sacrifice my sanity, (good job, marriage, clear head)
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