About Me: Male, 30, Durban, South Africa, member since Sep 2011
You could say I'm the nice guy who finishes last. I go through periods where I am depressed and reclusive, but I always pretend that I'm fine to everyone around me.
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[More]ind is a constant race horse of wild imagination bordering on stimulated delusions, but if I try to focus on important, relevant issues I am easily distracted.
My dreams are vivid and incredible, often dulling down reality to the point where I may wake up in the morning and just want to go back to sleep because it's more interesting.
Falling asleep is difficult and waking up is difficult.
I usually avoid conversation unless absolutely necessary, and as such I never speak to anyone about these things going on in my head.
As I write this I realize I must sound a bit nutty or unstable, but no one would ever guess so if they knew me personally. I suppose I focus a lot of attention on hiding it.
I'm very curious to find out more about such issues (mental, emotional, sleep) because no one in my family appears to suffer from any mental illness so I don't think it's genetic. The only trauma I've ever experienced that I know of was a dog attack when I was six months old, but I was obviously too young to remember, so I don't think that could be the cause either.
I just hope this exposition will help me find answers because it's not something I like to discuss face to face with other people, but it is something I need to address.
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