Don't know if I can handle having my life taken over by anxiety again. I just want to be free of it 100% :(( it's MY life it should be controlled by ME not an ugly dark shadow of anxiety!!!!!
About Me: Female, South Australia, Australia, member since Mar 2012
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Im 20 years old.
Female
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[More] In a Domestic Relationship- going on 4 years :)
From South Australia.
Diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression almost 5 months ago
-Not on any medication.
Currently not working :( I started getting all messed up and anxious at my last job while i dont like to blame others, i believe my boss had quiet a bit to do with it. A lot of messed up stuff happened. Unfortunantly.
So i now have the stress of being on a centrelink payment, rent and other bills.
I always think i am dying -Brain Anyurism, Heart Problems, Cancer. Always find some terminal illness i think i have.
However my OB'S (BP, Pulse, Pupils, Heart) Is and i quote "Textbook Perfect.
I dont quiet know how to deal with this. I was going good, getting out heaps during the day, trying to have early nights, looking for work, ect. Now it's although i have completely gone backwards -I havent been leaving my bedroom let alone leaving the house, cry all the time, mope, quiet, i am far from myself. :(
This is not a way of living, for anyone. I have zero motivation, i used to be bright, outgoing, up for anything, was never home, rarely cried. i've done a complete backflip.
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Don't know if I can handle having my life taken over by anxiety again. I just want to be free of it 100% :(( it's MY life it should be controlled by ME not an ugly dark shadow of anxiety!!!!!
Jan 01
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I hate myself for losing you' I'm seeing it all so clear. What do ya do when you look in the mirror is why he left you?'
Nov 11
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I'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly i'll do what it takes til' i touch the sky; Out of the darkness && into the sun'
Jun 25
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Im beginig to think this will never end.
Everyday it's something new, a headache, numbing, dizzy, general panic. Always without fail something wrong with me.
I dont...
Well it's definantly been a long time since i've been able to log in.
It's been a long hard few months. I have been back in my own home for about 2 and a h...
Well I finally got rid of my headache, but now it seems im back where I started. I always feel funny in my head I cant describe it but it's really getting to me, I ju...
Good I am glad that helped you a bit... I am doing alright I have school all day starting at 2pm here so that should help keep my mind off things hopefully...and I completely understand.. we are all entitled to a good pity party every now and then.. I hope you have a good day and try to enjoy it as much as possible :)
Just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am here for you if you need someone to talk to.. I know it can get really lonely when you are dealing with anxiety because it seems like no one understands.. don't give in to it just keep fighting back.. even though at times it may seem hopeless you will always come out on the other side stronger.