About Me: Female, 48, Pleasureville, KY, member since Apr 2012
I am a 47 yr old female, but I feel at least, on a good day, 67. I have been diagnosed with thyroid disease, hypo, over 20 yrs ago. For many years this was controlled with medication, synthyroid. But for the past few years, my whole life has been spinning out of control
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[More]. I am a mother of 4. And "Nana" to (2) little baby boys, & a 3rd about to be born. My oldest child is (30), Then, 23, 20, and my youngest natural born child is 6yrs old. Big Gap, I know! For the past 3 yrs, my whole life has gone down the hill @ a raging pace. My tsh levels have spiraled out of control, @times, extremely high, @ others, tsh levels barely showing up at all. It has basically jst stopped working at all at this point, and I am being traded off to an endo dr by my family dr. 4Reasons I do understand. My problem is, I feel like I am literally dying, slowly. I stay in my bed, most the time. It is becoming more & more every day. I spend about 19 or 20 hrs a day in my bed. Sleeping much of the time. I live with extreme guilt that I am not being a Good Mother to my 6yr old son. Although, truthfully, if it weren't for him, I'm pretty sure I'd already by gone. He's my Whole World. I am So desperate to find some help, help to get me out of this bed, help to care about what I look like, help to get up & brush my teeth, just help to get up, period. I'm Scared. I feel like I am dying, literally.
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