About Me: Male, 70, Beaufort, NC, member since Jul 2012
I am age 69, Divorced (25 years - 11 year marriage). Severe 'mood swings' have been a way of life since the birth of my memory. I have been blessed with the talent to achieve, and cursed with the TRUTH. Irrespective of the success, I would destroy it all.
[More] I hate me. I don't know why I cannot control my sudden over-amped response - one that is invariably followed by another, way over-the-line outrage.
It would take a two-book set to record this see-saw of a life. Near each and every person that ever liked, and even loved me (and there have been many) have been alienated, pushed-away.
Recently I learned that I may actually have a problem that has a name - that there are others experiencing - they are the only ones who can understand the confusion.
This is not me, not how I see me, not who I want me to be. I pine for all the love that I have lost. I am the Worlds great procrastinator. I have spent years practicing my escape(s) [barley surviving - having to claw my way back up, and all the addictions along the way - all quit after a relapse or two without any assistance] - that day when I destroy it all once again.
.....but apparently there are many younger folks needing solutions, answers to their questions - would it be there were a shot, even a series of shots - I would then be the nicest person you have ever meet - This is who I am, REALLY!, but I'm only dreaming again. http://www.poetsailor.net/ may interest you - Poetry.
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