About Me: Male, 32, North Eastern, SD, member since Dec 2007
Grew up on a farm in SD. Graduating class had 9 kids, all of us had been together since kindergarten. I had never seen a drug until I went to college. Used pain meds periodically until age 21, when I had a couple surgeries. Later, I got in with a PA (physicians assi
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[More]stant)at the university student health center for hydrocodone. Scored a few (relatively speaking) oxy's and hydro's when I could until a very fateful day.
I worked at a factory and lived nearby so I could go home for lunch. At that time I had a great Kind Bud connection and was selling and smoking a lot of dope. My roommate brought a guy home on break and he needed some grass, but only had Lortabs to trade. An interesting "friendship" evolved from there. Needless to say I am not "friends" with this guy or his family anymore. I watched him, his girlfriend and her brother fall into the addiction cycle. Mine was never as bad as theirs (Right?), but eventually I could no longer handle the waxing and waning of binge euphoria and dysphoric withdrawals. My addiction spiraled out of control and eventually I was in the throes of Methadone.
Finally made up my mind to go to treatment and cleaned up. Unfortunately, I relapsed a few months later when a new friend of mine happened to live with a cancer patient. Of course, I "got greedy" and lost my friendship with him (Fentanyl and Dilaudid this time) and several others who enjoyed my company, little did they know how "charismatic" an addict can be.
Now I have been on Suboxone for 6 months and my life has never been better. My wife and I are very happy and I have a job teaching High School English. Life is never perfect, but it can certainly be exponentially better than it once was.
Love to hunt pheasants, and other game, ice fishing, guitar and philosophy are my hobbies.
I have spent many hours looking at this forum in the past for help with my addiction and recently decided to participate and hopefully help some people in the same way that you all have helped me.
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