About Me: Female, 50, CENTERLINE, MI, member since Jan 2008
IM A MOTHER OF 2 BOYS AND MARRIED. I DONT WORK. I BECAME ILL 4 YEARS AGO WHEN A GUY MOVED IN A RENTED TOWNHOUSE FOR A FEW MONTHS, I DIDNT REALLY KNOW HIM, WELL MY GIRLFIREND AND I WENT TO A BAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, I HARDLY DRINK ALOT BUT THIS TIME I WAS VERY DRUNK AND ON M
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[More]Y PERIOD. MY HUSBAND WAS AT A RACE AND KIDS WER SPENDING TIME UP NORTH. WELL MY GIRLFRIEND DROVE ME HOME, HE WAS OUTSIDE AND SW ME GO IN. I WENT AND GOT MY BLANKET AND JUST PLOPED ON THE COUCH. I THEN HEARD MY DOOR KNOCK, I GOT UP SLOW AND OPENED IT, IT WAS THAT NEIGHBOR ACROSS THE STREET. STUPID AND DRUNK AS I WAS I LET HIM IN THE HOUSE AND WE TALKED A FEW HE SAID ARE YOU ALRIGHT I SAW YOU GET OUT OF THE CAR AND YOU LOOKED PRETTY BAD, I TOLD HIM IT WAS MY BIRTHDAYOUTING AND IM SO DRUNK. HE THEN CAME TO ME BY THE COUCH AND STARTED TO KISS ME , BEING DRUNCK I WAS NOT SCARED BUT WANTED HIM TO GO, WELL THEN IT GOT WORSE HE STARTED TO UNDO MY JEANS, I SIAD HEY DONT IM ON MY PERIOD PLEASE GO. I WAS SO DRUNK I WAS FALLING ASLEEP HE PULLED MY JEANS DOWN AND TOOK HIS DOWN, HE STARTTED ON ME AND I CANT REMEMMBER IF HE WAS IN ME AT THE TIME HE THEN STARTED PUMPING AND THEN I FELT HIM IT WAS SO FASTT, HE KISSED ME SIAD HAPPY BIRTHAY AND LEFT, I WAS SO DRUNK I WENT TO SLEEP WITH MY PANTS DOWN, OMG I WOKE UP AND MY COMFORTER WAS BLODDDY ANS MY JEANS, THEN I GO WORRIED, MY HUSBAND CALLED ME IN THE MORNING SIAD HIS GALLBLADDER IS KILLING HIM HE NEEDED TO GO TO HOSPITAL, THATS ALL I COULD DO WAS TO KEEP IT A SECRET WITH HIM SICK. I DIDNT MENTION NOTHING TO FAMILY, I KNEW THIS MAN CARRIED A SHOT GUN SO I WAS WORRIED SOMEONE WAS GONNA GET HURT, WELL AS THE MONTHS WENT ON HE LEFT THE STATE. I THEN TOLD MY PARENTS, THEY TOLD ME TO TELL HIM RIGHT AWAY AND THEN I GOT TESTED FIRST, I ENDED UP WITH TRICHIMINIOS, OH BOY I THEN HAD TO TELL MY HUSBAND CASUE HE NEEDED TO BE TREATED. IT WAS A MESS. I WENT TO COUNCELING AND PHYSCOITRIST, THEY TESTED ME THERE NOTHING.THIS WAS IN 2004. THEN THINGS STARTRD HAPPENING, I HAD LOST WIEGHT, THRUSH, NIGHT SWEETS, DIARAHHRA AND CUTS THEY WOULDNT HEAL.I THEN RAN TO BACK TO MY DOC, HE TESTED, HEP HIV SYPH, I TESTED POS FOR EBV VIRUS BUT IT SIAD PASED INFECTION AND HERPES 1 WHICH HE SAID WAS NOT A STD.WELL ITS 2008 AND STILL STRUGGLING WITH SYMPTOMS WITH WORSE ONE TOO ADD, IM LOSSING MY URINE I WENT TOUROLOGIST FOR TESTS, I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT DO TO AN AUTOIMMUNE DIEASE HASHMOTOSE LOW THYROID, I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD TILL THEY FOUND ANTIBODIES. I HAVE PRESSURE HEAD PAINS WORSE THRUSH AND YEAST INFECTIONS, DICIFLYN DONT HELP OR NYASTIN NOTHING WORKS NO ANTIBODICS EITHER MAKES IT WORSE. I HAVE SHAKES AND NEROLOGICAL PROBLEMS WENT TO NEURO THEY DDID MRI AND CT AND EEG SAID I WAS FINE SEND ME HOME WITH ZOLOFT, I DIDNT TAKE IT, FIBRO DOC WAS TOLD I HAD THAT OMG WHAT ELSE HERE I WAS A VERY HEALTHY WOMEN TILL THIS CAME ALONG, I WAS NOT AFRAID OF HIM, IM AFRAID OF WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME AND MY LIBEDO IS GONE. MY DOC HAS TRYED SO MANY HEAD PAIN MEDS NOTHING, IM TAKING LYRICA 300 MG, CYMBALT 160 MG SYNTHROID 112 MG FOR THYROID AND COLOPIN FOR NERVES BUT NOTHING IS TAKING THIS PAIN IN HEAD AWAY. I KNOW I HAVE SOMETHING WRONG, ALWAYS THING HIV OR SYPHLLIS CAUSE OF SYMPTOMS, I TALK TO CDC AND GET SAME ANSWERS, WHY I CALL I DONT KNOW. MY NEIGHBOR SAID HAVE YOU BEEN TESTED FOR LYME OR LUPUS I SIAD LUPUS NOT LYME, I DIDNT KNOW LYME COULD HAVE THESE SYMPTOMS. SO I WENT TO DOC ASKED FOR LYME AND TEST MY BLOOD FOR BACTERIAS, I WILL KNOW THIS WED OF JANUARY 2008.MY CBC IS ALWAYS DIFFERENT WITH SOME HIGHS AND LOWS ON STUFF I GET WORRIED. I WENT TO INFECTIOUS DISEASE DOC THEY SAID NO HIV AND UNDECTABLE VIRAL LOAD, BUT HEARD YOU CAN HAVE THAT FOR MANY YEARS IF HIV POS. I SAW MY REPORT, IT ALSO SAID MOD ANISOCYTOSIS, SLIGHTLY SPHEROCYTE OCCASIONAL TARGET CELL AND STOMATOCYTES PRESENT, HE SIAD IT WAS NOTHING, SIGNED ME OFF, I LOOKED IT UP I DONT UNDERSTAND MY HUSBAND SAID LOOKS LIKE ANEMIA BUT MY RED COUNT IS GOOD? COULD IT BE A VIRUS OR BACTERIA OR LYME IM SO WORRIED WITH HEAD PAINS ANS INSOMINA, SOME TIMES IM SO TIRED I CANT STAY UP PASS 9 OR IM AWAKE LKIE TODAY TILL 6 AM. SAME PILLS SAME TIME. IM SORRY THIS SAYS A LITTLE BIT ABOUT ME BUT I STARTED TYPING AND COULD NOT STOP. SOMETIME I WISH I COULD TALK TO A REAL HIV PERSON AND MAYBE IT WOULD HELP. OH ALSO I HAVVE RED DOTS ON BELLY AND ARMS EASY BRUSING AND VEINS POPPING OUT. OH TK YOU FOR LISTENING WHO EVER IS OUT THERE, I WISH THIS WOULD GO AWAY ALL THIS PAIN ESPECIALLY IN MY HEAD. I WANT MY MARRIAGE BACK I PRAY SO MUCH AND CHURCH. TINA MARIE
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