Hi, i've read all of your posts, and have pasted a excerpt from the doctor. Have you sought any therapy or treatment for your addictions. We haven't heard from you for a few weeks, and i fear that you are in a bad spot. Do you need to talk? Maybe i can help. Could you journal where you're at right now? Please don't isolate. I'm hoping that you are not on a bender making things worse for yourself. Liz
My best advice is for you to seek counseling. There you will have a space to heal from the loss. When we do not properly grieve our feelings do not just disappear. Many people make the mistake of jumping into a new relationship after a loss to try and feel better, only to find that the feelings of grief still exist. Grieving is not easy, but it is the path to learning to love again in a genuine way. Seek outside help and you definitely will get through this. Good luck.