Welcome to Medhelp's Drug Rehab Community. I've been clean and sober for 13+ years now and have had all the support that i needed to get and stay clean and sober. You mentioned that you have a wonderful husband, so you have all the support that you need. Now, you just have to find an Outpatient clinic and start the process. You are lucky, you are not alone, there is so much help here for people who have chosen to get clean and sober.