About Me: Male, 26, Chicago, IL, member since Jan 2013
Damn near suicidal, but will not quit until I find a cause, no matter how painful it is to drag myself through daily life without any help from doctors or family.
1) Chronic Headaches and head pressure that NEVER stops and is not relieved by any medication.
2) Chronic fatigue
3) Severe cognitive decline (brain fog)
4) Zero libido and erectile dysfunction
5) A life of chronic pain, misery, and mental confusion that I wouldn't wish on anybody.
4 years ago I was a very upbeat, intelligent, charismatic, and loving person. So much for good intentions and a loving heart: out of nowhere I was struck with mental illness and have been fighting it ever since. After a recent sinus surgery all of my psychotic symptoms mysteriously vanished, which was wonderful considering no psychiatric medication ever worked and the continuous ups and downs of suicidal rage was a hell I wouldn't wish on anyone.
I am now a firm believer in fixing the body rather than masking symptoms; something doctors don't seem to understand or care to acknowledge.
Although my psychotic symptoms are no more, I am left in a state of chronic fatigue, mental impairment (severe brain fog), and zero quality of life. Zero is no exaggeration. I am trying to get to the bottom of my problem, knowing full well there is a biological cause to all of it. This is EXTREMELY difficult, since the one thing I need most (mental clarity and sustained energy) is that which I am deficient in.
There are worse things than death, and I am experiencing that now: endless suffering without the ability to change it. I try SO HARD, every minute of every day, and am not a quitter, yet it seems the more I fight the more I get spit on.
I watch other people complain about little distractions and upsets in their everyday life, making it seem like the world is ending if they have a bad hair day.
IF THEY ONLY KNEW
Please contact me if you are of any help to any of my above symptoms. I will love you forever.
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