Welcome to Medhelp Maxima, you sound like such a good man and the circumstances seem to me that you do not need to ruin your life with your beloved for this. You would protect your child from knowing too much, why not your wife? Save your wife, for the same reasons you would spare your child. You can handle this. You were abused by predators. don't let them take anything more from you than those few minutes. God Speed. Protect your family from them. If you need to talk, I'll lend an ear. Liz