I'm about to turn 40! I am a stay at home mama of three boys the oldest boy is 18 the middle dude is 12 and the baby will be six. This year I plan on finding my happy creative center and stop being sick
As a little girl I experience separation anxiety I'm not sure why but I never quite got over it. As I got older ,11 years old, I started having panic attacks. I would attach myself emotionally with people or things and when those things were not around I would experie
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[More]nce panic. I couldn't control myself. I felt as if I were dying I can say that most of my life I have lived In fear or in fear of being in fear. As I got older I learned The world is a big delusive scary place. I just I guess I've always been in fear and I don't know if that's why today I am depressed and a ghost. that's why today I am paralyzed and I just don't do anything & I am no one. I just do what I have to do: wake up and go through the motions of what a mother has to do.I am no one interesting. I haven't any hobbies or goals, at least not lately. I have just beat myself down. with fear . I remember having dreams at one point. I don't quite remember what they were and I remember feeling some sort of happiness or. Hope when I was young maybe in my 20s. But now that's all just a curious. memory- I hurt physically my body aches my hip hurts every day and the only thing I look forward to is. Pain killers and sleep. All I have left is sleep
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I'm about to turn 40! I am a stay at home mama of three boys the oldest boy is 18 the middle dude is 12 and the baby will be six. This year I plan on finding my happy creative center and stop being sick
Feb 19
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I'm about to turn 40 in August! I am a stay at home mama of three boys the oldest boy is 18 the middle dude is 12 and the baby will be six. This year I plan on finding my happy creative center and stop being sick
Feb 19
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I'm about to turn 40 in August! I am a stay at home mama of three boys the oldest boy is 18 the middle dude is 12 and the baby will be six. This year I plan on finding my happy creative center and stop being sick
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I have been so depressed. Unmotivated. Lack of creativity. I need to do. To create. To feel. And I can't. I want to get stoned. I want to feel good. Why is it so diff...