I asked my crackhead why and he said 1. He enjoys it. 2. He feels it would be no big deal if there was not such a social put down related to it. 3. He does not understand how he continues to do something that he is ashamed to tell others. 4. It would be o k if it did not cost so much money. I believe these statements are covers for his actions and #1 and #2 he believes.. Pray for my strength I love him but this life is not for me.
His mother is an enabler that where he goes after a binge. Its a cycle. Binge 2 days, his mother home 2 days so there are 4 days with no contact then he will call, text, swear he sorry and does not want to hurt me and wants to stop. This lasts about 5-10 days and he's off again. I prayed to God for help me on making a decision. This last time I told him no more (I have said that a lot) I told him he must decide to use his willpower or I am done. This life is not what I chose he does not have the right to inflict this stress on a woman. I know he will hook up with someone else. He has done it b4 when I did not answer for a month. Deep in my heart I know this Friday when he gets paid the cycle will begin again. I need to be strong and your blog helped. Thank you.
Just a quick note to say hi! I read your blog and found it very helpful. I am in love with a crackhead. e have been seeing each other for almost 2 years. I have now know about the habit since October of last year. I suspected something all kinds of things from the beginning. He has broken many promises to quit. We lived togther for awhile b4 I found out. But because of his disappearing and what appeared to be flirtting I put him out. No matter how many times we breakup I always take him back. Deep in my heart I believe I am being manipulated. He sleeps at my home every night until a binge. I paid for my birthday celebration in Nov which he repaid and resented repaying in Dec. Christmas Eve he went on a binge and did not return until that following Monday.