http://bflbchallenge.tumblr.com/post/48890341707/day-110-overcoming-the-impossible
As someone who has struggled with Bipolar Disorder and confusion for years, yet has overcome it, I know how you feel. The link is to my personal blog where I felt like writing about my testimony in this area. Because of that, I came across your questions.
Please read it. I know it can help. :]
Source of my info: myself, medication free for 4 years and only getting better!
Hope you feel better soon! I hope you weaned off your medication slowly; if not, you will experience some side-effects. You might want to try adding just a teeny bit of what you were taking. By all means, contact your doctor. It sounds like something is amiss and needs to be corrected.
I think everyone who is manic-depressive has racing voices (their own?) in their head. It is just part of the very quick movement of your mind and sometimes we need to teach ourselves to slow it down: meditation, exercise, talking, gardening, praying. Slowing down when in a hypo-manic state is not at all easy!
I am sending you this note because I read a post back in 2008 that you started and I have never heard anyone else describe what I've been doing since I was 14 or 15... And I'm curious as to what your docs told you and how they explained the narrating in your head. I hope you have found some help :/
As long as I can remember, it's like I'm in a movie... I am aware that the voices in my head (which are usually my voice) but at the same time it's other people talking. Talking about what I'm doing, talking about my past, just talking about me--negative and positive. How crazy does that sound, right? I've never told ANYONE.
But I have finally made the decision to tell a therapist tomorrow. Does this sounds like what you're going through? Currently on treatment for anxiety/depression...