WELCOME. Please dont think of relapse. Think of how much youve gone through already. You dont want to do it again. I was on long term sub - over 2 years - and I am now on 67 or 68 days off. Believe me I KNOW what you are going through. I know where your mind is going. But you must fight it. Make it through each day - one day at a time.. you can do it. I did and I really didnt think I could.. but if I can - YOU CAN!! Many have. Hang tight.. keep posting.. dont hesitate to PM me if you need help or any information- Sending prayers and love