About Me: Female, 55, Decatur, IL, member since Dec 2008
I am a recovering addict who is presently battling cancer and trying to avoid all pain medicines while going through chemo. I have 18 wonderful clean and serene years which helped me to go back to college and take a journey into myself to find all the wonderful qualiti
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[More]es that had been hidden in my younger days due to drugs and alcohol. I got clean when I found out I had ovarian cancer over 18 years ago and I was one of the lucky ones back then in beating ovarian cancer. I got through the pain of not being able to have children of my own, and learned one can still make a difference in the life of many children through volunteering. Two years ago I started to notice I was not feeling so chipper and after months of procrastination finally went to the doctor. When I found out I had a cancer in another area I was perplexed but I knew I had to get right to the heart of fighting it. Chemo does not scare me as I have been through it before but today my struggle is to get through the pain without being medicated as I value my sobriety and know how important it is to stay clean and serene.
I love to paint, draw, and now I am learning how to do annimation in my spare time to fill alot of empty hours. What I think is the hardest part about fighting cancer is how you many times have to fight those who have well meaning intentions but do not understand what a struggle a decision like pain medication can be.
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Friday I got discouraging news and I am trying to sort through all the new diagnosis and more importantly prognosis and what to do. Not quite two years ago I started feel...