About Me: Male, 56, Fort Worth, TX, member since Dec 2008
I suffer from Severe Depression & ADD according to my Doctor. I am in counseling and a proud member of NA. I became addicted to opiates after six surgeries on my neck. The first Anterior surgery caused severe migraine headaches, which was worse than having arm, should a
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[More]nd neck pain. I then had a posterior cervical laminectomy, which resulted in contacting MRSA Staph infection where I nearly passed on. Vancomycin did not work and I was in the hospital for quite sometime with a 103.9 temperature. The MRSA reached my spinal fluids and hit my brain. Now I suffer from severe depression and anxiety. I am not able to function on a daily basis and when I do focus for a two or three hour period I become tired and disorientated, even with medication. This is very frustrating to me and it is hard to enjoy life's journey with this type of affliction. I have tried suicide by overdosing on opiates and sleeping pills (not at the same time) and failed three times. The Doctors say this depression is not likely to ever go away, because of the physical disability of my brain due to the MRSA reaching it. In fact, my Infectious Disease Doctor told me, quote "I don't know how you ever lived through this". Cubicin saved my life, but yet lost it as I had once experienced life; As a highly funcition Senior Corporate Executive. Yes, I was fired 18 months after I had been clean of any narcotics. I guess they just waited to build a case on me. Very dis-heartening how corporate America works. They could not give a darn about anyone person. Corporate America just wants profits and to maximize stock values. People do not matter today in 95% of Corporate America. I suide and won my case, but this termination is still hard to accept when I Supervised the most profitable, fastest growing and largest region in the company. I have deep resentments towards the Senior Leadership of this Company and I am competent that God will address them at some point.
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Very fatigued, with stomach ache, headache, anxiety and panic attacks. Pain was pretty challenging today. I had lots of opportunities to make a lot of money today, but tur...