Mest1114. Got your note. Kinda had a feeling there was something like that going on. I'm no expert, but in my experience you gotta commit to years of therapy (if affordable) to work through this sort of thing. But I encourage you to be brave and do what you have to do. Like I said, life's too short and there are too many happy moments to spend unnecessary time worrying. Whatever you invest will be of enormous benefit to yourself and the ones you love. Good luck!