About Me: Female, 36, Federal Way, WA, member since Mar 2009
I am here to (hopefully) get the info and support I need to understand and get free of my addiction(s). I can't believe this has happened to me! I was treated for back pain and one med. just rolled into another until I ended up on Oxycotin for approx.7 years. Then, "ya
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[More]ba-daba-doo," I decided to go to detox 6 months ago. I was completely ignorant about any part of the process .. except my fear. I only know now that it wasn't a good place. They were great at dispensing meds. but not information. I didn't even know what they were giving me. All I did was sleep for (nearly) 6 days. When I came too, I thought I was 'cured!' I came home on day 9, beginning to shake, barely able to speak a complete sentence. I had no idea what was wrong with me. All the detox place would say, when called, was: "..don't worry, you're going to feel alittle better everyday.." But I had no idea when that might be!! I spent atleast 3 days in a ball, sweating like a longshoreman. Sorry for the mental picture! lol. Now I know that I was still going through Oxycotin w/d's .. perhaps some Suboxone too - since that's what they gave me through those 6 days of being knocked-out. Had they been a better place I would have made it through at home and been done. Instead, due to my fear and ignorance, I thought something HAD to be all wrong and I entered a hospital for help. Well, they put me on Suboxone ... and to make a long story no shorter, I was on Suboxone nearly 6 months before I began researching it. I found this site almost immediately. That's when I found out that my kindly Sub Doctor either didn't have a clue .. or he was lying. He said that detoxing from Sub was no worse than going through a mild flu, no matter how long you had been on it. I didn't believe him. -- I began weaning myself down about 6 weeks ago. I jumped off from @ 1mg., (if that) ... I felt like the blood had been drained out of me but days went by and I thought I was going to slip by the worst of it. Day 5, 6, 7 - nothing too bad. Day 8 I went to bed and restless legs??? I WISH !! My entire body was restless legs!! More like a: army-of-bugs-crawling-frantically-inside-a-herky-jerky-nerve-explosion!! ...I was severely ill prepared for just how bad it would be. I didn't make it. -- Let me see, back to detox?? Hmmm??
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-- I lost the first entry I had just about finished, so I'm going to make this very short right now...
I don't care what you're age, size, attitude, et...
-- TWICE I have written here tonight ... long, labored, emotional ... all in pain. And I just lost the (longer) second entry!! Good grief!! ... I guess it wasn't mean...
March 13, 2009 - Friday...
Whoa, Friday the 13th!! Not that I'm the superstitious type .. not at all. I am the, coincidental ' type.' Yesterday I took a...
Just a quick note to say hi! you are very welcome. i am on and off the site all day and nite, so if you ever need me just send a noteor pm...i will get right back to ya...