Hello Photographer4, i am new to this forum (I'm on the HIV prevention one). I used to be anorexic and bulimic a long time ago, anorexic at age 15 and from age 16-18 bulimic. I know that it's hard but you can conquer this disease! Think about your future, i became "normal" in just one day(!) i just said to myself,"enough is enough, i want to be healthy, i want a future, i want to have a family.."try to say it to yourself. The first day of eating will be hard, but it will be easier and soon you will enjoy eating again.