When I was little (around from when I was seven until I was around ten or eleven), my brother (five years older than me) would often play games with me that I realise now were inappropriate. He made me touch his penis and I believe even more and I think he'd make me undress but I'm not sure. My memories are really cloudy from this time since I think I've suppressed them over time.
I have a really bad hypersexuality issue now which can be common amongst sexual assault survivors.
But I asked someone who was my friend at the time for help then they called the child services, who threatened to take me from my family (apparently) if it was true.
I've since been in therapy for a long time, going through five different therapists and I brought it up to my previous therapist since I was scared and worried.
My mum would yell at me and tell me I was lying and to not tell anyone ever again which is fair since she wants me to stay home but I'm living with my brother that did that to me and it all just feels uncomfortable since I'm not sure anymore if it was real.
I really thought it was before mum started hurting me and I'm really scared and worried.
I want to get help but I don't want them to take me from my family...