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[Kaka20]

Hello.I am male 28 no girlfriends.everyone likes me i am very funny n good looking 6'2 height.people admire me as I don't tease girls and women.I was touched and got introduced to masturbated when I was eleven.I dont even know what that was I just use to feel good because of that.I use to do that .one idiot showed me porn when I was 15 or 14 at the same time I saw real boobs.my tuition teacher use to feed her son before me.in that curiosity I came home and touched my elder sister boobs while she was sleeping one night she touched my pennis as she was only 3 years older then me.I use to peep into my sis room and masturbated.I was eighteen by that time.I stopped all that and use to masturbated watching porn.now I stopped watch in that also and my past memories are killing me in all ways.people think iam a good person but I feel like killing myself .I still think if that person's didn't teach me masturbation and porn I would have been a different person.I am afraid of girls now I can never love any girl genuinely I feell like water of leaving and I am a biggest sinner on this planet.I spoke to y sister also and she told me that it's because of harmonies but non of my friends did any such things.I also feel like a loser.when ever I think about sex all this things come to my mind and I get depressed.I always feel why me....

[Nighthawk61]

Please don't feel guilty about masterbating or watching porn. These are often stages that people go through. Since you are not happy with the action anymore , change it. Do something else worthy, and AnnieBrooke had a great idea to do some type of volunteer work . if that is possible after you look after your education and work prospects.

You say you are 26 with no girlfriend, YET. (right? no gf, yet...) I think before you are personally ready to have a gf you might want to talk to a therapist and learn to let go the things that are making you crazy. You need to get to a calm place before you can fully give yourself to another. Can you get to a therapist?

Also, are your working, or going to school? Do you live by yourself, or with your folks? Do you have friends, (where you can meet girls)?

[AnnieBrooke]

I wish you did not have such guilt laden onto the situation.  It is normal to masturbate.  No, it's not acceptable to spy on your sister and especially not to touch her, but the way to get past that past shame is to stop, which you did, and to apologize to your sister if she knows you did it.  (Do not tell her that you did it if she does not know, since it would be distressing to her to learn of it and it would be unnecessarily unkind of you to hurt her.  But if she does know you did it, give her an apology from the heart, and some serious promises that you will never do that sort of thing again to any woman.)  

Then to feel better in your mind about yourself and to get your life more balanced, possibly do some altruistic things that make you feel like you are contributing to a good cause.  Find a cause you care about, and volunteer with no thought of gain, and work very hard.  It will help you realize that you are a worthy person, in a world that needs all the help it can get from worthy, hard-working people.  You are not a loser until you give up.  You can become a happier person if you are contributing to something that needs help.  Good luck to you.