@anewlife4me thank you. i never really wanted to go to a domestic abusive center, but now im thinking its time.
@margypops: I dont really think about it. I have recently just started to notice that I behave the way I do because of what I have been through. Its a very unconscious issue.
It takes time some folks heal quicker than others,3-4 years a long time to be with someone . , sometimes we can over think I find its easier to switch off those negative thoughts that take us back to the past , next time give yourself a few mins then say 'Enough' and switch to doing /thinking something positive Same at night I expect you lay there mulling it over ..time to get tough and switch off. You will meet someone else...
Hello :)
Thank God you left him. My last relationship was very physically abusive. A lot of what happened then with him affects me now, I cannot believe just how much. I cannot trust anybody, am afraid to speak my mind to anybody, etc. etc. The only thing that has helped me is domestic abusive counseling. I don't know if it's available in your state but in mine we have free domestic abusive counseling and it is totally confidential. I wish you luck and if you ever need to chat, just PM me :)