Definitely leave. My dad wasn't as severe as your husband, but he was emotionally abusive. All of us had to and still have to walk on eggshells around him because he is still judgmental as can be. He has said things to my mother--especially recently because she's put her foot down about him NOT getting a motorcycle even though he wants one--that no husband should ever say to a wife.
All this has lead to plenty of problems for me emotionally that I've had to work hard to overcome through the years. My sister is full of anger and further distrust of men than she would have otherwise despite what happened to her. She also has some emotional issues that she's choosing to ignore and bandage with alcohol and drugs.
Even if it's just for your kids' sakes, leave. I wouldn't simply let this behavior go ignored during custody hearings following the divorce either as how is he going to be with them alone?
Thanks Annie!!
I'm ashamed that the biggest thing keeping me in this relationship is lack of money on my part, fear of how nasty he will be and fear that he will somehow get custody....everyone in our neighborhood thinks he is so calm and rational. He also has a lot of high powered friends in the community, where I have very few friends. As for saving $$... He keeps tabs on it....and I'm not sure how I can.
I also feel guilty...like maybe I am crazy ( as he often tells me I am) and I'm the one who has the issues.
I feel pretty alone and isolated and thank you for your support :-)
You leave. He isn't going to change. What a crappy role model for your children, they are going to think it is normal to live with the elephant in the room of a domineering person's behavior that everyone is afraid of.
Do your work. 1. See a therapist and work out how you are going to tell the kids. You want them to know that you are doing it because nobody deserves to live in fear in the family setting. 2. See a lawyer. You probably need to establish a record of what your husband says and does, maybe even record him in some cases. Write a journal. You will want custody of your kids, so you will have to show he is a scary man. 3. Save some money, this is going to be a fight.
What your husband is putting your family through -- manipulating through fear -- is pretty much no different than everyone in the family tiptoeing around the fact that dad is an alcoholic, or crazy, or a drug user. The fact of having to always be on eggshells but never be able to admit it is very difficult and erosive.
Your lawyer will best be able to advise you about what you can ask for in a divorce. I would want to be able to stay in the house with the boys, and to have support for them.