Thanks I will its hard but everytime I miss him I just think of all bad he done and it helps
It will get easier. Please devote some love and time to you, and allow yourself to heal from the traumas of that relationship.
Yes, it's perfectly normal to miss someone whom you've loved and cared for despite the negative qualities and this incident which showed its true qualities. However, I admire you for being strong enough not to contact him. It's a very good idea to stick to that. Keep looking forward and keep your chin up!
Best wishes!