i would suggest you find a therapist you can trust and eventually have your mom and husband (i think your husband needs to go to many of the sessions with you so he can understand) go with you and first confront your mom. in separate sessions have your therapist explain to your husband what he should NOT be doing and why. if your mom denies it, just know that is not uncommon. my mom, to this day sticks up for the man that abused me and often say's 'you are just trying to make me look bad'. my response is 'you make yourself look bad'. don't let that hurt you. i am learning to handle her, actually just stay away from her
I'm so sorry that your mother did not protect you as she should have during your childhood. I am hoping that your husband can learn to be more sensitive to your needs, but first you need to find out what exactly they are. You need to talk to a therapist, a women in my opinion. This would help you to deal with your mother not protecting you (as you would have a female therapist who would be protective of you) You would learn from a female what you need to have learned from your mother. how to protect yourself now and in the future, and how to get by challenges from the past. I surely hope there is no financial reason why you could not seek therapy. I don't know if your mom is in your life, but maybe you can ask her for the money to see a therapist. That would not be odd at all. As it would serve your marriage well to seek therapy, perhaps your husband would be happy to help you get there? I hope so. You deserve to find some peace.
I too have had a good many incidents happen in my life, and all i can say is, that from this point forward you have to protect yourself. Get it through to your husband that you will not idly sit by and let things happen to you that make you feel uncomfortable now. Ask for his support in this, as you are looking forward to healing and you know the only chance you have of this happening, is to stop feeling uncomfortable. period. Make sure that when you do engage in sexual behavior it is because it's something that you want, and you will not regret.
I'm sending you a big hug. I'm so sorry for your pain honey and your being made to feel so abandoned by your mother. Shame on her. How sick is it to be having sex with 4 of your children in a hotel room with a stranger? Pretty sick. You cannot change the fact that you were not protected, you can only move forward and be a great mother (if you have kids) and protect yourself now!!! In time, that will go a long way in your healing process.
You're 19 now, and if your current husband does not cease and desist from forcing himself on you, I would leave. This is in no way helpful to your healing and in fact, can do you just as much harm as when you were a child dealing with unwanted sexual advances. He must be made to see this, if not, in my opinion he's not the man you need in your life. Let him know that you need therapy for yourself,.
You don't need to live like you were raised. You can leave all that behind you. You are in no way responsible for any of the issues in your life..Moving forward, one day at a time, you can live in safety. You can plan on having a good relationship and having a family. But you have to figure out now whether the man you married is capable of making you feel respected and is intelligent enough to go to any lengths, as any good man would, to support you. This man might not be capable of that, and therefore it might have been a mistake to have married so young. You may need to set the "reset" button and start fresh, in order to have the type of life that is progressive and safe. You have to know and feel that you are worth it. You are, but do you know it? A therapist is of the utmost importance to you. Pay the price, and ask for a female. With what you've had happen to you, it would be a shock for the abuse to not continue without some therapy. Best of luck, God be with you. God speed. If you need to talk i'm here for you. Liz
By girl first off talk to your mother alone then be first up with her be forward because it all starts back to the first time it happened then the first person u told im telling u I have been threw it.
By girl first off talk to your mother alone then be first up with her be forward because it all starts back to the first time it happened then the first person u told im telling u I have been threw it.
I'm sorry for all you went through and the fact no one was there for you. I understand how you feel about in some ways because I was molested when I was 7 or 8. It affected me in so many ways. In some ways I'm still affected. But God is helping me along the way. If it wasn't for Him I would be crazy. My life is so much better. What was meant to kill me, didn't. I have to victory. I'm still learning, but enjoying life better than I used to because I have hope now. Praying for you all.
Veronica
Hi Kaykay. Some men can be so horrible but luckily Most men are not. I pray that you can heal from these abuses and that all the men in your life respect, protect, and love you. Your husband will need to become ( if he isn't already) a very special man. Loving you and honoring you with his words and actions is important. I am a man with a history of drug abuse and have been in recovery. I never hurt girls or women in the way you were hurt and even when I was drunk or high I would never imagine hurting someone in such a way. Your husband (if he is close to your age) is at a stage where sex is very important to him. Let him know that you love him but you need him to act in a special way in order for sex to be most enjoyable to you. Working these things out is a normal part of any young marriage but your past makes this a bigger challenge. You can overcome with real love based in caring and mutual respect. God Bless.
First of all I want to say that I am sorry for all that you have gone through. I can imagine that it might feel like things can't get better. I have had some pretty terrible stuff happen to me too . Its hard to talk about. Talk to your husband about the fact that you feel very uncomfortable with him forcing himself on you. He shouldn't be doing that especially after what you have been through. I recommend you try therapy or councelling .I understand what you are going through and I want you to know you are not alone. Hugs and Prayers.
I'm now 19. Didn't mean not.