venting!

He first started to rape me he would
wait till I had to pee or to take a bath and
do what he wanted. He use to make me
look in the mirror with him and say baby
don't we look good together.....Now
everytime I go to the bathroom I think he
is going to come in there to get me. He
used to come in even though I would lock
the door. The bathroom was also my first
time I tried to kill myself and it makes me
think everytime i go in any bathroom so I
try my best to avoid the bathroom.
# I can't shake this image

[specialmom]

Hi there.  I am sure you are in some kind of therapy.  Essential getting over traumatic experiences.  I'm sorry you have been through some horrors.  peace

[RockRose]

joylicious, your profile is jarring.    This message you post is haunting and sad and kind of poetic,  and then there's a post about hey am i pregnant here are my symptoms.  

I agree with SpecialMom that therapy would be a good idea.