Day 11, feeling pretty good!

Past couple days have been waaaaay better then the last week. Anxiety has almost gone away. I dont sneez 4-5 times anymore usually just 1-2 times now. Its not AS cloudy but still a little bit. My energy is still pretty low but i can feel it getting a tiny bit better day by day. My cravings havent been bad these two days.

Went and saw Halloween 2 today....rob zombie did one hell of a good job...Bought to go see my fav band tomorrow, super stoked for this week.

To everyone out there struggling, hang in there, all the suffering is worth every minute. Life is sooooo much better plus having extra money allways helps! Dont give in, take your life back!!!

PS
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[Totsie59]

This can and will last....

Soulds like the fogs is lifting....you are seeing so much clearer now...Good for you....

It is amazing when we get to this point...everything smells different...everything looks clearer...our brain is getting clean....

Hang in there, you are doing great...

[Totsie59]

PS....the sneezing is crazy....but it will pass too...

[LateAugust]

Going to a concert     I know it is the mom in me........  but is it  a bit too soon for  that environment?    I hope you have a great time  and can  maintain your commitment to a clean life.   Please let me know how it goes for you,,,,,,  it does worry me,  you are still early in w/d recovery   and   maybe I am the silly one  but  not sure that is the place for you to go,,,,,,     I am not saying  forever  but maybe  wait a month or two     okay my lecture is over,     You know it is only because I care about you,  please tell me how it goes........    

[BornofOsiris]

awww thank you for the concern!! it really does mean alot to me...This isnt your normal outside everyone smoking woodstock type concerts...Kind of a low key inside small venue type thing. The place where im going i have never seen someone use nor even smoke weed (inside so bouncers can catch you QUICK!) plus i never popped pills before i went to ANY concert, since when i used and got hot i would throw up and waste my high...(sorry for the details!) I am not nervous or anything, also i will have my friends with me whom know of me getting clean from my addiction.
I think this will be good for me to get out instuff, since i have been pretty much just staying home all the time and it starting to feel like i am developing a phobia of leaving. This will be good to get out have some fun and burn some energy up.

P.S.
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...(my addiction)

[LateAugust]

Well  I guess I gave away what kind of concerts I went to!!!  (and no it wasn't Woodstock, good lord I am not that old!!)   :)   You are continuing to make such positive steps in your life and you are doing great!!   I hope you have a really good and sober  time at your concert and burn up a lot of energy tripping the light fantastic  lol !!

I am so happy you are getting control of your life, before the drugs took control of you.. yeah it is pretty silly about the throwing up part.......  I know my daughter would tell me after she railed oxy she would throw up  and just keep using.....  how very sad.

Have a great time tonight  and I'm looking forward to  hearing how your night went.

My best to you!!

[BornofOsiris]

lol o i will deffinately tell you how it goes!! So last night was pretty cool cause for the first time in a looong time i was actually able to just lay down and fall right asleep with no problems!!! not only that but i only woke up about 2 times. (which i woke up from my girlfriend getting in bed). I finally got about a good 7 hours of sleep, but i still had very low energy levels this morning. I have not even had a craving yet, if i did then i didnt even notice lol. My life finally feels like its all starting to fall in space, no more stress of owing my payday loans, and no more stress of scrambling whom i am going to buy pills off of.

PS
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[BornofOsiris]

o yea im on my 12th day now!

[Totsie59]

Congrats on day 12....you are doing great...

I am so glad to hear that you are getting some good sleep...

Keep up the good work...remember take it 1 day at a time...

PS...this can last and this will last...