Today starts day 9 without opiates and so far so good. Not sure what made this time different, but at this point last time I quit I was so emotional; I figured that it was because I had numbed my emotions for so long with the pills that they were all catching up with me. Maybe I'm just lucky or finally found an anti-depressant/supplement mix that works well for me.
Kind of dreaded yesterday, cuz it was payday & that would create opportunity. But it actually felt good to sit down and catch up on some bills and while there's not a lot left over, it's a start. Money was one of my big motivators to quit - I was tired of being poor and I'm lucky enough to have a really good job but was living paycheck to paycheck. Silly, but I was excited because I got to go to CVS today and buy stuff like bleach and dishwashing liquid and not have to think "is this going to cut into my pill budget cuz the dang dishes can wait." Also had an offer yesterday (suppliers know it's payday too, of course) and said no, wasn't even that hard, although I know there are going to be lots of times when it will be, no doubt.
Now for the musical inspiration. On my way back from my big CVS shopping spree, I listened to the song "I'm Movin' On" by Rascal Flatts. Great song; if possible try to find a download or video clip. Or just read the lyrics - I'm sure it would be illegal to reprint them here, but here is a link:
http://www.cowboylyrics.com/lyrics/rascal-flatts/im-movin-on-13607.html
This has been one of my favorite songs for years, but now when I sing along, I actually feel like I'm finally "Movin' on."
Peace,
Kate