I'm no example

Well its time for truth. I've been abusing my somas. I found the suboxone doesn't block that out.
I feel like i've been decepting my friends, and for this I am truely sorry. I feel worthless. Its going to be hard to bounce back this time. I Don't know what else I can say. This one is hard on me cause I really let myself down.

[hopeless]

First of all, you did NOT have to say sorry! This happens! My God, it has happend to me time and time again. And for so many others on here...

YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS...So don't ever say that, you hear me?

What are somas anyway? Explain to me what you did/are taking?

Talk to me girl, i am here!

Love u,
Hopey

[ingleside07]

You are not worthless, you're an addict. It's okay to fall off the wagon - think of the NA slogan "just for today" - don't put unnecessary pressure on yourself. Take it one day at a time. Do you have a psychiatrist? You should, if you're not already, try out an NA meeting - there you'll find people who have trodden your path and can empathise, understand and support you.

[hopeless]

Remember, being honest is the best way to be...It's the only way to get help. So for you coming here and admitting what you did, i am so proud of you for doing that!

One more thing, you said this is really hard on you cause you let yourself down. Don't worry about it, you will pick back up again! We all do... Sometimes all we need is a little encouragment! You know you will get that here. We all just love you! Remember, you are my mama #2.

So Mama, spill your guts to me, if there is anything you want to talk about i am here. Are you upset about something? Maybe this is why you are doing this to yourself. Let it all out, right now! Talking to people really does help! You can say anything you want to me. If you want you can email me, if it is something personal. It is up to you sweetie...

Love You,
Hope

[tautou]

Its ok. I'm high right now :)


Sometimes you have to take a step back before you can move forward

[hopeless]

YUP...

ONE step back, TWO steps forward...

It'll be alright!

[BonnieAnn]

Calm down sweetie, and stop beating yourself up!

We have all been there. Dust yourself off and get back on the horse.
Besides, I do not, at all, want to minmize what you are saying, but Somas are NOT narcotic. There are many people who take them, myself including, while weening or detoxing. They are not in the class of opiates.

Come on back and keep talking. Everyone here understands.

Be good to yourself, Bonnie

[nurseintrouble]

First of all, sweety, Soma are not narcotics, they are muscle relaxers.  We as nurses do not even lock them up.  I am taking the heck out of Xanax at the moment (which are locked up and considered a narcotic).  What ever gets you off the hard stuff, OK.  Soma really helps with the leg cramps, RLS and leg pain.  I don't feel at all guilty about the Xanax because if I didn't have it, I would be tearing through the narc. cupboard at this very moment.  So, relax, do what you need to do to get off the pain pills, worry about the Soma after the RLS, leg cramps and pain are gone.  If you find yourself taking them in a few weeks, then you need to re-evaluate what it is you're doing.
Love, hugs and kisses,
Nurse

[lonote]

Your the BEST! It feel good to get the support. Somas may not be narcotics, but I cannot minimize it. Because  I know what my motives were and that was to get a little buzzed. And hope sweetheart, I am troubled. my son just got to land in Capetown Africa, and its the highest crime port,in south africa. He said they have a 3 person rule. Buddy system. Theres a bunch of gangs and litle methheads running, as well as the place is very beautiful. I'm just troubled by it all. And taking pills whenever you have problems isn't the cureall. I've been craving getting f---ed up for a while, of course its a secret thought, cause the suboxones supposed to be working.

[BonnieAnn]

Good for you. Maybe I am justifying taking the somas? Geez..never thought about it. I take a few nites a week to help relax my muscles before going to bed. However, I am surely not above convincing myself that that is all I am taking them for.
Listen, not a day goes by that I don't crave some Oxy's or Perc's. I know that will take time and work on my part before that goes away.

Hope to see you soon.

Hugs to you, Bonnie

[lonote]

Well bonnie if I were to be honest with myself, i just know I had bad intentions when taking them. All 5 of them! So why do they knock out regular ppl, and we get energy from these things?

[BonnieAnn]

That is probably the age old question hun. our bodies react different. Some think it's a chemical make-up thing. Who knows?

Anyway, do you feel better this evening?
Pls hang in there.

Hugs, Bonnie

[hopeless]

Hey Cathy,

Ok now that i know what Soma's are, don't worry about it...They aren't nothing bad! You are fine!

NON - NARCOTIC...You might just be getting yourself all worked up over nothing, maybe just feeling depressed or just having a bad day! It'll be alright, i promise...

Hope

[hopeless]

Now if you just took 5 percocets or Vicodin or something like that, then that's something to be concerned with, but you didn't!

Cheer up sweetie!!!     ( - :

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Cathy))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Big ol' hugzzzz for ya.........

[lonote]

Yes, I do feel a bit better this evening. I just had dinner w/ my husband. I made a meatloaf, hashbrn's/onion and sweet corn. My timmys full. Of course I feel better. Next a Snickers ice cream cone, and I'm set.

[lonote]

((((((((((((((((hope, bonnie,nurse,tautou,ingleslide.&me)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))love ya back!!!!!!!!!!!
You guys are so understanding, and nonjudgemental. Hope thanks for reaching out. You rock girl!!!
How are you feeling today? Hows work going. You are like a diffrent woman since you got out of the hospital. Now that I've seen the family send a pict of you!!!   You have a beautiful home!!!

[hopeless]

mmmmmmm........mmmmmmmmmmmm........mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.........

Where's mine at? That sounds yummy!

LOL @ you, you said "My Timmy's full...I know it was just a typo, but sounded funny! Made me laugh!

Ok going to mom's house now, be back...NO not you mama the other mama...LOL  ( - :

[hopeless]

Hey you already seen me....

[hopeless]

My pic...u see it all the time...LOL

[hopeless]

Thank you for saying my home is beautiful

[BonnieAnn]

I feel the hugs..back at ya!